Flaming June's Love

I really like people watching- any people, anywhere. I like a cold nose under a warm blanket. I need a blanket even if its hot out. I cant sleep naked- through the night, I am naked periodically through the night. My clothes begin on/or off, then at some point get off or on. I wake typically the opposite of what I went to bed as. (Ask my husband how this happens.) My lips are hugely kissable, been told by several people. The smell of Jacks neck while he sleeps. Missi's hair as it is int he morning all long and wavy and thick, Defined as BEDHEAD BEAUTIFUL Allie when she comes into a room after not seeing her for a while. She changes things, just about everything with her spirit. Since moving our bed into the circle of windows, it sounds and feels as if we sleep outside. I love my husbands big hands, His tenacity, his big heart for the people he loves, and especially how much he loves our boy. I dont love it now but will someday love how jack gets into our bed EVERYmorning. I do...

Andy, Jack and I went to the beach. We left 7ish on Sunday morning and were ont he beach by 11. It was a beautiful day and the boy hasnt been in a few years and it was a cheap treat for all of us. We drove, chatted, listened to Jacks movies playing on the mini dvd player in the back. I reminisced about trips of years before with the girls and Tim. Interestingly enough Andy doesnt mind the Timmy stories. Driving on the 4th of July to the beach with our two children and two of my cousins for a week at the beach. Bumper to bumper 8 hr drive. argggh. Anywho, we went directly to the beach and jack loved the sand. He dug rivers and holes and filled with water then watched it drain. He was the most beautiful child there. I must admit though I didnt realize the extent of his speech difficulties until several children and adults looked at him like he was speaking another language. One occasion especially a mother said "what" "What did he say?" about four times. I und...

Something you should know about When I Look To The Sky Lyrics Title: Train - When I Look To The Sky lyrics Artist: Train Lyrics Visitors: 14817 visitors have hited When I Look To The Sky Lyrics since June 03, 2010. Play When I Look To The Sky Listen to Train songs for free! toolbar.inbox.com When I Look To The Sky Lyrics All Train Lyrics from largest lyric site on the net! best-song-lyrics.com Ads by ClickFuse Send "When I Look To The Sky" Ringtone to Mobile [Verse 1] When it rains it pours and opens doors And floods the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love That have to say goodbye [Chorus:] And as I float along this ocean I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me And you make everything alright And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me And I can always find my way...

I am full of things in my head. Jam packed full of things that need to be done. Missi's big graduation bask is this sunday, and estimated 75 bodies will be passing though the yard! I am excited, yet as always nervous of glitches. My Mom and her infinite wisdom has thought out all the details with me and we have it. Now just get my house cleaned to the Hilton standards and we are golden. Allie will be 21 tomorrow. She and I went to Jon Mayer concert over the weekend and truly I am in Love with both John mayer and Allison Elizabeth Faith B. We chatted, sang, danced, laughed, and had a great time. She is probably my favorite person to hang with. Missi had to work but understood. She is going on a little holiday with ehr BF and his family to inner harbor this week. SHe cant wait and I am totally happy for her. Then ALlie starts her traveling month of August before Nursing school starts. Florida for a week, then directly to Vegas for three days. Home for two then to Scottsdale to visi...

I am not much of a talker, I am a writer. So those thoughts that everyone has and divulges to that one person that they trust, well I hold it in then put it out there for blogdom. Good, bad whatever it is out and I usually feel better. Today , I feel better. Spent the day with my boy and he was excellent. truly the best. Went to school this am and got a good report. We found a frog in the yard and made it a habitat in a huge mason jar. He named it "Jackie, a girl frog" Not just jackie but the whole thing, jackie a girl frog. We went to the library he was great. He had to sign his name for the first time officially. He signed with some assistance. He is a library card holder, a true American!!! So for posterity, July 20 2010 Jack J T put his signature to paper, it will be a collectible someday-mark my words. He carried his notebook with him today marking off the list the things we got done. Bank-check Nana's- check Library- check Chicken and fries from BK-check Pick up ...

Irish Blessing Death is nothing at all I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other-that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used, put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. pray, smile, think of me, pray for me Let my name be ever the household word that it always was. Let it be spoken without effort without the trace of a shadow in it. Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was. There is unbroken continuity why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you somewhere very near just around the corner. All is well. Obviously that was for Dad. Four years ago today he had his catheterization done. I think my dates are right. What does that mean now? Not too much really. I can go back in my mind and try to remember details but you ...

My newborn son with his exhausted daddy. Beautiful light on Allie, I swore it was my Dad watching over her. Missi with the smile and face of an angel. Me after surgery admiring my miracle boy through brand new eyes. My boy with shaving cream on his face with the world in his eyes. I was browsing my blog for the year following my Dads death because we are quickly approaching another anniversary. i am forgetting alot. I sometimes want to feel that pain again so it doesnt feel so long ago. I feel like I need to be punished for letting him go. I still wonder "How did this happen??????" I wonder if the bad things that happen now are my punishment for screwing up Dads post surgical care. Not paying attention. Was I sleeping? Where was my head? Why cant I go back and change things? Just one minute? Anyway. You will have to bear with me the next few weeks as I torture myself again. maybe someday I can let it go, but, not this year. PS My son still doesnt have a grandfather...