Flaming June's Love

I am not afraid of pain. I am afraid of pain that leads to more pain. I have had patients that I've watched suffer, immeasurable pain from burns, cancers, indescribable loss. Loss pain I believe is the most torturous to watch, or survive. A Mother had to be told that three of her four children died and the last was burned unrecognizable and most likely going to pass as well. She begged for me to KILL HER, PLEASE JUST KILL ME.  I CANT LIVE ANOTHER MOMENT. I was a kid of 21, fresh faced and ready to see it all.   Be in it all.  I got it all and it took me years to get the smell of burnt flesh out of my nose.  I can catch it every so often when I work at the grill.  Andy gets perturbed when I catch a whiff of "smoke" or "Fire" or "fuel" and send him on a wild goose chase to find the source.  Its smell memory.  The smell of pain.  I know physical pain, surgical recovery was difficult but I was convinced I would get physically bett...