Flaming June's Love

OK so I am going to say some stuff here that I feel. I usually try not to go places that are going to ache me but I need to. Tomorrow my ex husband will be 46. \ We would be married twenty years in June. I know nothing is ever one persons fault but I do have alot of guilt over the demise of my first marriage. I was too young, I was not mature enough, blah blah blah. I hurt someone more than words can say. I hurt Tim sometimes just so I could feel something from him. He wasnt and still isnt a very outward talkative I dont know.. he didnt meet my emotional needs. I also had a very high sex drive, and we didnt do that much either. I was a kid, married at 22 baby 23 and just all swirled up inside. Where am I goin with this tonight, well... I am sorry to him. I feel alot of remorse for the pain I caused him. I really think we werent meant to be together for life but that doesnt excuse my really REALLY BAD BEHAVIOR>. I did alot of cheating. I may have been emotionally needy but I s...

Artist: John Mayer Album: Unknown Title: Say Take all of your wasted honor Every little past frustration Take all of your so-called problems, Better put ‘em in quotations Say what you need to say [x8] Walking like a one man army Fighting with the shadows in your head Living out the same old moment Knowing you’d be better off instead, If you only could . . . Say what you need to say [x8] Have no fear for giving in Have no fear for giving over You’d better know that in the end Its better to say too much Then never say what you need to say again Even if your hands are shaking And your faith is broken Even as the eyes are closing Do it with a heart wide open Say what you need to say [x24]