Flaming June's Love

I went for a walk this evening Jack and I. As I said this am it was an exceptionally beautiful day here. The evening remains equally memorable. Twl things to remember so I will write them here. 1. The light on the trees at 6:45 was tremendous. setting reddish harvest sun in the west. threw light on amber trees that I swear I havent ever seen before. If I knew how or what the color was I would paint my liffe with it. I dont know if it was so much the "color" as the "light". Ok here is the thoughtful side of it,.... Could that be my Dad? Could he be in "heaven" and shining a light down on Jack and I so that we feel something good? Did his face pop into my mind habitually or intentionally inspired by a greater being, force, power? Did I get that grateful to be alive feeling by encouragement or by habit.? I miss my dad on a daily basis. He and Mom lived up the street so seeing him 3-4 times a day was not unusual so when I say I have lost a const...

Dear GOD, Thank you for such a gorgeous fall day. The sun is shining, the leaves are the first sign of change, the hint of a light green to soon turn those magical colors of northeast fall. I was able to get into my own car today on my own feet and with strength and enthusiasm and wrestled my healthy happy 1 yr old son into his carseat and went to the grocery store. That is where I realized that I have enough money to buy food that intriques me, freshest fruits and vegetables for my children, and still have money left over. Jack and I drove with the music playing windows open and breathed in chilly fresh air. Smell of leaves cut grass and images of a hot cup of pumpkin spice coffee. I sit here now on the computer, my home is clean, I am healthy, my oldest children are at school, a private high school where they are getting one of the best educations possible in this area. I am so grateful. I have had loss the past few years bu I am encouraged, positive, grateful and ready to li...