Flaming June's Love

My sister in law sent us the prayer for tonight between 9 and 10 for Danny. If anyone out there reads this please send it up to GOD for our boy. One more long arduous week until he comes home for a short ten days. We are having a welcome home party here for him on August 9. Yes August 9 we welcome recruit Jones home from Parris Island. Three years to the day after sending our Dad to Heaven with our prayers. Life is a strange and awesome journey. How can one date be so packed full of Love. Please remember Danny from 9 to 10 tonight. Thanks for the prayers. MARINE PRAYER Father, in the coming days, I will need you, but my recruit will need You more! Let him perform his tasks with a sense of duty, not of anger or vengeance. Let his reflexes be quick and his hands steady. Let his head be clear and his eyes sharp. Let his mind and body be strong and his spirit stronger. God, please stand by my recruit and watch his back when he cannot! Father, I love this recruit of mine! Take from ME, w...

Today. I was thinking about my Dad. I can go back 3 years and try to recall the dirty, heartwrenching details of where and what was going on. I think about it and I still get that turn in my stomach, with the heat behind my eyes, that is fair warning from my psyche that I am about to weep. To weep means to me that my broken heart is reminding me it is still there and although my life goes on it is NOT the same, and is NOT right without him. I can see him so vividly-so clearly in his normal healthy state. I had the feeling this morning that I was going to see him. Drive by the old house Suzie, he will be on the porch. I did get into my car and drive the short 5 miles-excuse being coffee from DD- He wasnt there. Why do I do that? Why do I continue to ask for reminders of our loss? Why do I want to cry when his spot is empty on the porch? Why do I turn my feelings over and over in my heart only to conjure a 30 second crying fit, every time? If I look back on my posts from the 1 yea...

I think it has been three years today since my Dads surgery. That in itself says alot since I used to live by dates and days of the week. He died on a wed, surgery on a wednesday. Heart attack on a Saturday- you know. My heart attack on a Thursday. Today is Tuesday. My grandfather I think died on a Tuesday. My Mother in law died today. Tims mother will always be my mother in law. I loved her, and have loved her for 25 years. I know that her last few days were hard, since she died of lung cancer. I hadn't seen her in 8 years. But I loved her just the same. She loved me too I know that. The last time I talked to her was when the girls went to visit her over Memorial day. We always had an understanding-no need to say too much, we just knew. We spent hours talking, just she and I discussing kids, parents, marriage, homemaking, cooking. I peeled my first potato with her. Made my first pot of coffee. I was 18 when Tim and I met so to say I was a child, is not a lie. She e...

http://rulesformyunbornson.tumblr.com/ VH1 Marathon greatest one hit wonder of the eighties. Talk about what you used to do in hotel rooms, when you had an entire day off... then do one of them while the kid is sleeping (yeah not a good mommy trait) LOL

The anticipated vacation took off with great expectations. I had all my school work done, the packing done, and everyone ready to go. Andy, Jack and I go t into the car around 7 30 ish and were on our adventure. I can usually travel with Andy anywhere. I am surely not his greatest fan when it comes to his driving tactics but, he dries all day 5 days a week for twenty years, so I turn it over to the highway Gods when he at the wheel. Anyway, we arrive in R I at twoish in the morning and get into our suite and I tuck ANdy into the big bed so I can get Jack settled down and we can all get some sleep. Jack had slept since 930 so he was raring to go a three! We watched some cartoons I go him some milk I took a quick shower and we were asleep by 5. 5:45 I hear singing, no chanting, no it was a drill instructor his "platoon?" singing as they ran "marched" for their morning PT. Oh yeah sexy, I know, but really does Jack Have to think it was a parade and wave out the...

Nana and I have been planning and preparing for Daveys fiftieth for a few months. We have talked about the details and guest lists and menu for a while. The who what wheres and whens not a problem. The best part, is always unplanned. Mike and Phyllis came up for the party and that is a good thing. All the cousins showed up and that too is a good thing. Great thing Jack was a good boy. Great thing Davey was surprised. Food hot, beer cold and weather relatively dry. We sat in the shelter and laughed til we couldnt breathe. It rained with lightning, thunder and we were alright. My girls were there and had fun. My ex husband was there and he was NORMAL!!! Reminded me of why I married him!! Davey will be 50 on the 16th. My Mom was doing dishes last night and said, "when your child turns fifty, it is a big deal." I thought how huge that is. SHe made him abeautiful album with all her favorite pictures of him form the time he was born through current. So so valuable. pr...

My life is so busy and truly crazy at times. Add a little pms and I am a true train wreck. I can wind myself into a tizzy and almost foam with angst over the little shit. I am so busy trying to keep everyone above water that I wonder about my mental health. Not seriously unstable...but minute to minute I can feel torn and confused. My work can be lessons in futility, I can talk and everyone nods but I dont see "light". I can say that shat my topics can be to blame but then again I can blame it on my attitude too sometimes. My girls, they are my blessings and sometimes I can string them up. I asked for them to be strong willed and courageous, then when they exercise those qualities with ME I GET PISSED. Jack has been great and all reports from school have been excellent. I hope that he can hold it together just a little bit longer and behave while hanging with the cousins. Andy and I surprisingly have been good. I think all things cant go to shit at the same time, as ...

Had a great 4th this year. I could go back and check out last year but I am pretty sure this one was better. We had quite a few people and we had lots of food and drink and lots and lots of laughs. Jack played with Ella all day and was great with her. ALlie and Kendall were here and they I beleive are in LOVE. I will go into more detail in a bit. Missi and Brandon were here and they were cute and quiet. Andy was a marvelous host. He as I have mentioned before did not have the greatest upbringing. Not terrible but I dont think he had much. I dont hear much about parties as a child or friends at his house so I believe this is something relatively new for him. He was gracious, patient, talkative and helped but not interfering. I think one of his better holidays. The food was plentiful and honestly good, if I may say so. The best part, the company. Mike and Phyllis who were one of the first couples Tim and I were friends with came for the holiday. First marriage friends at the ...