How do I feel??
My Aunt called, how am I feeling? "with the date and everything?" A nice way to ask if I am out from under the covers with the anniversary and everything. I feel like shit and hoped I would wake today and be in 2006. I truly have body aches and am feeling exhausted. So how do I relieve that I have overspent. I went and got far too much stuff for the kids the past week. Pics of the baby, allie college stuff. Missi just spending money. I am avoiding everything and burying it under money. Andy never ever puts limits on me because honestly I am a tight wad. Tonight he called and as gently as possible told me to cut it out! I know I have overdone it but what to do instead of sitting at home, and thinking. I ant walk too much cuz I think. I dont want to talk cuz then I think. If I write then I obviously am thinking. I said to my Mom that if I get through the next three weeks I am definately going to live a long ass time cuz if my broken heart can live now i can live ...