Happy Birthday to me.
Tomorrow I will wake up and BE 43 years old. I will officially BE HERE 4 years longer... I turned 39 then it all changed. But then again it didnt. I thought when I turned 40 my life was really changing, or moreso I was really changing. My family had a surprise off the cuff party for me. In my Mom and Dads yard. Andy got me a bicycle with a seat on the back for Jack and we were riding that afternoon. As we rode past Nana and Pops house I stopped THERE... because I did that numerous times a day. Just stopped and walked in.. We stopped and my girls were on the porch with my parents and Maryellen and Jackie and a few other friends. I was so happy and surprised and proud. Proud that I was even HERE since It was one year longer than I should have been at that point. Now I am HERE. HERE wherever that is. And should be THERE, wherever THERE is. He is THERE... Maryellen is THERE... I need to be more like THEN, than NOW.. and be happy to be ME, instead of THEM. 43 isn't so bad. I am...