still thinking....
i have been scared all day. i know he is out of danger but my heart is scared, I have been aware of the thin cord that attaches us to this life I have watched patients leave this world and go to another. I have been with friends as they pass through what the undefined mist is. I felt my father leave his body as he looked me straight in the eye as I smiled at him and told him we would be alright. The potential of losing a child of ours is too monstrous to hold close to myself for too long because it becomes almost real. The images, the despair, the loss is stirring of reality. I swat the images away like flies, only to have them buzz about my head when I am least expecting. I have no control over the kosmic reasoning in life and loss. I do know how fragile it all is. Life and death are both balancing on a pinpoint and the least offensive of winds can send the whole thing down. THANK YOU FOR SAVING HIM. THANK YOU FOR SAVING ALL OF US,