So heres the story. I was really really scared. I don't want to leave any of you. I am so deeply in love with the characters in my life I am not ready to leave. And now my heart is now in good shape. The same shape it was in when I left the OP seven almost years ago. I have a totally blocked Right coronary artery but ancillary vessels ahve taken up the work. My grafts are still patent. great news. I have to lose fifty pounds and exercise everyday. I can do that if I can recall how scary it is to think you are going o die within the next few minutes. Walk... and walk quickly ... or die. hmmm. I believe I need to walk, maybe even run for the next few days, weeks, years. So now what to do? The last time I had the shit scared out of me I was jsut so glad to go home and be with my newborn baby and teen age girls. I am still that thrilled believe me. I couldn't wait to get into my bed and have my girls and boy come visit me. Except now...