Flaming June's Love

Hey Dad , Its Suzie. First of all I really hope you remember who I am because I have spent alot of time praying for you about you and us as a family. I would be really bummed if the whole reincarnation thing was true and you are back down on earth as a bug or beast or some kid in a faraway land. My other concern is that if I do get there before too long are you going to remember who I am. Will what we had here mean anything to you then? Does it matter to you that I got the records from the hospital about what happenend to you here in the hospital? I know it wont bring you back but I want something from this. Comfort, peace, explanation, knowledge. I can bet money it doesnt mean shit to you now. I never thought you would have an answering machine where your at Mom is in New Mexico at Ricky's house visiting for a month. I am so proud of her. She got on that plane by herself and transferred planes and had delays from weather and she did it. I am so proud of her. You are ...

I held my breath and smelled in my nose. I looked at your face and down to your toes. A swirl of green and blue was flying above your head. I know that there were angels floating above the bed. Come over me come over me show me the way, How can there ever be a Dadless day? The swirling blue green angels are churning the hours I hold on, gaze into your eyes, those eyes are ours. "Can you feel it daddy we are surrounded by love?" Its the love you two made and now will share with above. As swirling blue green misties encircle all our minds. We hold onto each other and let you go to find your finds. Our prayers we whispered our pain we cried aloud, We know you heard us tell you how forever we have been proud. I think Mothers arms wide open and fathers heart full of pride, Are the visions you saw while we on earth cried. The defining moment when you looked at each of us with love, Your mind and soul still with us for last seconds then gone. Your smell it lingers in my heart and...

Had a long post ready to go and pouf it was gone. fuckers ate it at Blogger I guess it was that good. Now Ive lost my motivation and steam. It was good too, about the boy at daycare, and our new house, and I got my dads medical records and all that that entails. I feel drained and shitty. Anyway a few pics and Ill rewrite tonight with the details of it all. Nothing bad just feelings I had that seemed to flow.