Flaming June's Love

A night alone is something I get frequently, most married women dont get these but I have a husband that is refered to as a "road warrior". He is a salesman and travels all week on the east coast. How do I feel about having the week to myself with the kids and dog in our home. Fine, happy, satisfied, grateful. yup yup and yessirreee!!!!!! I love my husband very much and dont know what I would do without him but..... I was alone with my girls for quite a few years prior to my second marriage so working and living on my own is quite comfortable. Only difference this time is that Jack is with me during the day and at night. I am a BAD MOMMY!!!!! While my husband has been on the road since Jacks birth I have brought him into bed with me when hubby is away. bad bad girl I know and now I am paying for it. Not that I care if he sleeps with me til hes 5 but hubby wants room in the bed when he gets home on Friday. well dont blame him really, but boy it is hard to break a ba...

My motivation, lets see... I am a sad person at this point. If you put it all on paper I have it all. I have an attentive handsome husband. beautiful healthy children. I am moderately healthy, considering having had open heart surgery one year ago following a heart attack following the birth of our son. ( Yeah sounds dramatic huh!LOL). Anywaysssss... ( as the kids would say) My dear father passed away a month ago and my broken heart has more cracks and divets than ever. Have you ever met someone that you knew was special before they even opened their mouth? That was him. He had a sparkle in his eye even when not trying. I am the youngest of four children and the only girl. So I was always loved and cared for but being the fourth whether boy or girl there isnt much time. My father worked all the time for us and my mom was and remains the most well put together, organized, planner ever. long story short, My heart hurts. I miss my friend, My daily laugh, my daily refle...