Flaming June's Love

Yeah so that is almost three years, Au%ust 18th Ill have my new junk...three years. My Dad came to visit me in the hospital about a day or two later after this fiasco and said he prayed, prayed to %od to let me live. He told me he would trade his life for mine at that time. He said that out loud. "SuZIe, I prayed to $et you well and asked %od to save you and take me instead." I thou%ht nothin of it at the time. Until a year later almost to the day and he is lyin% in a hospital bed, dyin%. Did %od listen and take him up on his offer? AM I here because of some deal? Should I feel %uilty? Its all very bizzarre isnt it? Im %oin% to ask him about that when I see him. Remind me of that OK?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. Kahlil Cut me a break dudes and dudettes I am tryin here. I am really stretchin% and reachin% for some sense of peace on this day. I do feel some relief that my MOm and Dads house sold easily, Mom has some extra cash to feel comfort from. We are all comforted by the idea that she is closer to me and I can be there in less than three minutes. ALL FANTASTIC. I am searchin the web for words to comfort my feelin^s of loss, and a quote that will ease the reality of transition. Transition and chan%e are all fine thin%s. WHEN YOU WANT CHAN5E!!! I personally dont want chan%e, I like the same old thin%. I was born to be the same old thin%, dammit. OK so Kahlil Gibran is tellin me that my sorrow is just a si%n of my happines...