Fast walker.....is OK.
I am living everyday. Whether I am walking outside, inside, yoga, swimming, chatting with strangers, engaging with students, confessing to my confidantes, laughing til I pee with my friends, Hugging my boy, Loving my man, dreaming, planning, singing along..... I am living these days. I was walking today and thought "I am going to run." "I can run, right?" talking to myself.... I tried it.... I jogged. I dont know how to hold my arms, I dont know how to breath right, my boobs are banging around in my THREEEEE SPORTS BRAS!!!! My right foot went numb almost immediately. I got the old familiar pain in my left shoulder blade and realized... I CANT RUN. I CANNOT RUN. I CAN NOT RUN. All these years I thought "Who cares if I cannot run, who wants to run anyway, I just want to keep breathing." I wasn't taking care of myself at ALL. NOT AT ALL. I had the perfect excuse to not even try. I didnt want to try. ...