Flaming June's Love

Did you ever see the movie with Robin Williams? people with sleeping disease, given medication and they wake up? Well Suzie is waking up! 2001- Suzie realizes that her husband of so many years never really loved her, how did she find this out? He told her. He realized after 9?11 that he didnt want his life to end without knowing real love so he wanted to give his relationship a chance with a girl from work. OK so I was always the one with the upper hand in the relationship I THOUGHT. He loved me, just didnt know how to express it. Nope- he just didnt express it cuz he didnt have it for me. I was reeling, I had spent many years believing that he was shallow in the feeling dept and I was going to bring him out. I guess my broken heart came from believing that I was tricked, fooled, decieved for 15 years. Long story I went to my Dr. she and I are on a first name basis because we became friends years before. I lost 15 pounds in two weeks and couldnt stop shaking. She prescribed Paxi...

Quick post about the loss in VA The parents that lost their babies on Monday loved their children as much as I love my own. How do you survive this. I have been praying, in my way of praying. Talking to, Whispering to, crying to, somehow give these families with their loss so immense and immeasurable some peace. Some quiet in their hearts and souls about their loss and the life they will try to go on with. I am struck down with my own changes and feelings lately of change and loss of control. I have to look to others and their burdens in order to take some inventory of my blessings. I decided to keep living, literally continue breathing for these children of mine and the thought of losing one of them is far too much to bear.

Hold to me sweet child Hold to momma's skirt. stay under my shelter dont leave my guard Im too scared to open the gate. As I see your dreams behind your eyes You want to reach to further skies, "you belong to me, along my side, You cant go I will decide." I cant decide, I must subside, Let her fly, let her fly. Be gentle world, To my sweet girl, My sweet girl, my sweet girl. Give her vision of her place in life, Give her courage to survive her strife, Give her patience to achieve her goals, Give me courage to let her go to let her go to let her go