Flaming June's Love

Im feeling some Christmas spirit, but then the tree falls over and breaks a few balls as it always does, and Jack has a freaking meltdown after a weekend of excellent behavior, so yeah Im feeling,... ambiguous. I have waited for a very long time to have Christmas in this new house and you know what... It is just a house. The rooms are bigger the paint is classy, the floors beautiful but you know what , just rooms. My kids are the same and amazing. My husband the same and.... I am the same and feeling IT. Allie had an assignment for her Philosophy class, she had to ask questions of four different people at four different stages of life and I really didnt want to know my answers. I am sure no one wants to hear another story of regret and shoulda coulda woulda's but hat is what my life is right now. I try to see past all the PIA shtuf but damn Im tired. I am trying to keep everyone happy bu thtis girl is old. How old would I be? 35 Why? independence broke, yeah but potential was...