post 199
How funny is that I have written down my thoughts 199 times right here. I started I think in Oct. I am now almost full circle. My Mom and I and our cousin went to lunch today. We sat at Olive Garden for two and a half hours. Obviously not eating anymore but talking. Not one word about Dad. I guess too close to the surface for all of us. One year ago tonight we were at home without having to go back to the hospital to visit. He was not there. I left the hospital that morning just wanting to take him with us . I told my brothers that I hated leaving him there alone. They werent going to treat him like a man anymore. He was Just a number now. I took alot of Ativan this day one year ago. I dont really remember the whole thing after we came home from the hospital. I called Andy he was on the road in Vermont and he came home and was there by 8 that night. I spent the whole day with the boys and my Mom. Then the parade started. People came that I didnt know. Food was everywhere. ...