I want it.
I have finished my Ornish program. Graduated! Even had a graduation ceremony with my comrades of cohort 8. I am now doing my best everyday to eat well, exercise, relax and find people that want to listen to me as I listen to them. Share ideas, feelings, dreams, fears without judgement or repercussions. I enjoyed all aspects of the program, the group therapy was amazing. I shared with the group the overwhelming fear I was having during my last post. The group therapist suggested I see someone privately. (crazy ville I guess?) So I did. I did see a therapist 3 sessions. I shared my overwhelming fear, crippling stand still heart pounding fear. I guess they call that trauma now. I guess if you admit that you have been through scary shit, for a long time, they call it traumatized. I dont call it anything. I do believe that my sharing my fear, when it happens, helps me. If someone else has it too, then they can understand ...