I am still here..
Well the holidays are officially over and I am still breathing and feeling. I have anticipated the death of my parents since I was a child. I think everyone as a young one thinks aboutt the day their mom might die or their father. Almost like the day you have children or get married or something, because they are such turning points in your life. Anyway I always thought my life would just be over when that day arrived. I have felt that feeling that nothing is as good without my dad but I survived this dreaded holiday and we did alright. Last night my daughter had her girlfriends over and they played cards and did 15 yo girl stuff. Allie and her boyfriend went to her friends house for a "couples" party. Mom was, or seemed alright with being home and listening to records and reminiscing I think. I am sure it is a terrible thing to think back on almost 50 years with someone then spend your first alone. I would haver been with her but she wanted to be alone. So I was he...