Flaming June's Love

This was Allies sweet sixteen party. They were married 47 years. My mom said not too long ago that she still saw the 15 yo boy she fell in love with when she looked at him. They were truly in love. I miss these people. My mom is not the same without him. They smiled and loved alot. I miss who we were. I want my Dad back. Hot hot tears, For the lost years. Hot hot tears, for all my girlish fears. hot hot tears. whispering in my ears Why did you let me go How could you not know The decision made a week to slow hot hot tears hot hot fears close my eyes, my heart dies, time just cries, sad goodbyes, sad goodbyes, sad goodbyes.

I knew it, I knew it last week with the upcoming trailer for this week. The family standing around watching the dad die. I was there. My brothers and Mom looking to someone for what do we do? Me. I have felt that. Knowing he was in pain, and letting him go on. I wanted him to live, get better. I knew it as soon as they put him back on the vent I knew he wouldnt make it. I wanted to believe, needed to hold on. The end of the show when George says that he doesnt know how to live without his Dad. I know that. We, our family were defined by him. He was the anchor to what we are. Our history is wrapped up in his pride. A man that lives for his family that was dad. Pop loved us more than my words could define. He fought hard, fought real hard. He didnt want to die I know it was too soon. Izzie saying that no money can replace him true but man we will sue the hell out of those drs that made mistakes. I ask myself everyday everyday, what could I have done different. I woul...