4 Nights
The time is here again. The fist time I did this I thought that by this time I would be soooo used to the "letting go" part. I probably would have been. But so much has changed in the year and half since Allie came home from college. I have come to know her. To say we are without our difference would be a lie. We bicker and twist with one another almost everyday. But I also know she is my line to reminding me "Im ok" I have to again let go and let it happen. Just lay back and let Life move. forward. She is only two hours away and I know with Kendall in her heart at this point she will be home often enough. I feel anticipatory preemptive cryfest. I am doing it when no one is looking. I am doing it with my eyes closed, my heart beating and with a tighter grip on my Missi and Jack. I want to let go, and smile. I am practicing as we speak. I am letting go right now, right now.... ok Ill let go... in the morning.