Flaming June's Love

I have been random blog reading this evening and find that my problem has not been what I have been writing it is moreso what I have not been writing. What am I afraid of? well, I guess people I know and dont know passing judgement on the feelings I may convey. So.. Fair warning... If you are reading and dont want to possibly find out something that Ive done said, thought or may think do or write about STOP READING NOW Very egotisitical of me to think what I may write could effect someone else but I have found out somethings about myself in the past year and I may as well share them with.... myself?! 100 things about me.. 1. I have blue eyes. 2. I have a third nipple. 3. I have three kids. 4. I have been pregnant 5 times. 5. I have been in love 5 times. 6. I believe you can love someone without them loving you back. 7. I lost my virginity at 15 to a drunk friend of my brothers, bad thing. 8. I made love the first time at 18 with my first husband. good thing. 9 I felt prettiest in m...

MaryEllen passed away yesterday morning. I got a call from John around 8 am and he said he thought she was going. I ran down the street and got in her room and she was gone. I told him that and he didnt believe or couldnt believe. He has been in such denial through the whole ordeal and he broke. truly broke. I stayed for the morning until Jackie got home and the boys. We waited for the coroner and then we started to relax a bit. They were drinking since 8 in the morning so I just sat with them for the day. John asked that I do the reading at church and of course I said yes. I will do it for her sake but I am not excited about the priest at the church. I dont have any pics to post tonight. I guess Im not much into the blogger thing lately. I hope to get back to work soon now that my stuff is not much pending as it was. I have lost 7 pounds and feel better already.