Flaming June's Love

My Immortal lyrics I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus] I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along [Chorus]

I am going someplace I shouldnt. I am shaking awake a part of me I thought I laid to rest. There is a concert coming to our local arena/venue. Evanescence, the feeling is so right there I want to go but am so afraid. I had an experience 3 and a half years ago and this music was so a part of my life I truly lived it. Every song from the album/cd just integrated and almost became a part of me for a while. Intense yes, should it be scary no, but it is for me. I made some bad choices, hurt some people, and in turn really really hurt myself. Along with at the same time the preemptive strike that began the whole downward spiral I ended up in. Long story short it was a bad time for me and my ego, self esteem, leading to self destructive behavior. I dont know why I am writing now and why I am compelled to stir the proverbial shitpot, but I knew the day would come that I would need , NEEEEED to come to terms with myself. No blame, no finger pointing, just plain acceptance. That is what I n...