Flaming June's Love

 How to begin. "It has been the best of times it has been the worst of times." I had a few posts that I began but never posted that I decided to just "let go of" and publish.  SO that is where the extra posts from this date came from.  Check the written dates and that will explain alot.. Our boy turned 15 the other day.  The past 7 months since March 13th we have been on a relative lockdown quarantine stay home order. While in the middle of this craziness it seems as if life is either a total shitstorm or minor inconvenience.  We are reaching the end of our summer and it has been one of quiet simplicity.  Mixed with fear and mindbending uncertainty. I have rambled between this has been a mother nature wake up call to slow the hell down world VS I need to get the fuck out of here before I lose my mind and die here.  Our boy is now 15 and begins HS in a few short weeks.  In reference to the PANDEMIC we are in the throws of we have now been out of ac...

Well our two week Jack and Mommy hiatus has turned into a full blown worldwide pandemic. We spent Easter just the boys and I and honestly it was horrible. There wasnt any thought of Easter bunny baskets dressing up... nothing at all. I watched mass on my computer. I was annoyed allll day. I miss my girls and my Mother and my LIFE. The way I imagined it and the way this thing is going down are two totally different things. So my plans to go out the mountain with Jack and Nana are not gone.  But certainly logistically this would not be an easy task. I am working harder now than I have in year.  Distance learning without a board and not being able to lecture is a nightmare.  My workload is heavier and I have a full schedule. Going out the mountain is great as long as the internet works and I can get my ZOOM to work. The cats... The dog Andy being home alone means he will definitely not be cautious. I dont know what will happen with Owen should Allie be deplo...

My last post from March was about a dreamy setting of two weeks vacation called "coronacation".  Yes well that was just that.... A DREAM> What has actually occured is a worldwide pandemic. AGAIN... WORLDWIDE PANDEMIC>

I know its been a while. Much too long even for my liking. So just a reboot and pick up where I am now. We are in the infancy stages of "The Corona Virus" I am torn between, Ah people love drama and its all media hype, and  Contagion. We will stay home as often as possible and keep washing our hands and doing what we can to stay healthy. I have stocked up on some items, but certainly not enough to last six months. There is gossip about schools closing for two weeks to figure out how this thing will go down, that said... I anticipate my work closing down for the same and equal amount of time.  I will be home with Jack, just doing our thing. The plus side, dreamy part of it is...  This may be last of time I will get with him before he is "BIG" He goes to HS in the fall.  He is busy and sports and studies friends.  The summer is already full of get aways and boy scouts all that stuff.   Our Corona Hiatus may be our transition from...

I have been blogging lately about myself.  It has always been about myself and my children or husband or family.  Until lately its been about me.  How I feel, How I want to be, what I am doing. I guess a bit selfish.  But as I look back I realize this place has been what I needed at the moment I needed it.  So here I am going back a bit to a favorite topic. Jack. Last week he started eighth grade.  I can look back on this blog and see kindergarten even pre-k.  What a blessing that is.  To see how far we have come in these 10 years since starting school at Good Shepherd Academy. The other day coming home in the car Jack was explaining to me that the kids in the II classroom are now in his specials.  This means that the Individual Instruction class are in his music, art, computers, gym and library once a day.  He was explaining to me that "These kids aren't just Autistic kids mom, these kids are the really special kids, they dont ...

Yes this is a funny post.  Ive been doing the selfie thing when I think of it to chronicle this adventure of trying to keep going. Now today when I had the idea to make this post with a few of the pics I was feeling positive and up!  Tonight as I write this post I am not that positive nor up.  I overate today.  Nothing horrific from my mealplan but just MORE than I should.  I was so hungry today.  All day and especially tonight. Its alright....  Im ok. There is a reason I was so hungry.  My body needed more today.  SO I FED IT> My heel is hurting abit which then makes my calf hurt so tonight instead of walking, I rested.  While Jack ran at Kirby i pulled out my folding chair and sat by the fence of the softball field and read my book.  I was still outside, breathing fresh air, chatting with people and watching my boy. I am still winning. BUT THIS GIRL UP THERE!!!  SHE'S ALL THAT> I hope to b...

Tomorrow morning we get up at 6:30 and start the machine for 8th grade.  The machine is the process of "doing school."  I am very excited for our boy to start 8th grade.  I never in my wildest dreams imagined it to be this way.  I never planned ahead more than a week or two.  Typically because I either thought I was going to die any minute or that Jack was going to self destruct any minute. But neither has happened.  Unbelievably.... neither has happened. He packed his backpack.  I bought all the supplies but he packed it and Im good with that.  He read all his summer reading books and was done two weeks ago.  He liked the books. Ill say that again..... for those of you in the back.... JACK LIKED HIS SUMMER READING BOOKS> If that doesnt describe Jack to you, then you're missing the Jack trip. He has started his cross country training, that was about a month ago.  His first Invitational is Saturday.  I cant wait.  I...