I need to remember...

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Yes this is a funny post.  Ive been doing the selfie thing when I think of it to chronicle this adventure of trying to keep going.
Now today when I had the idea to make this post with a few of the pics I was feeling positive and up!  Tonight as I write this post I am not that positive nor up.  I overate today.  Nothing horrific from my mealplan but just MORE than I should.  I was so hungry today.  All day and especially tonight.
Its alright....  Im ok.
There is a reason I was so hungry.  My body needed more today.  SO I FED IT>
My heel is hurting abit which then makes my calf hurt so tonight instead of walking, I rested.  While Jack ran at Kirby i pulled out my folding chair and sat by the fence of the softball field and read my book. 
I was still outside, breathing fresh air, chatting with people and watching my boy.
I am still winning.
BUT THIS GIRL UP THERE!!!  SHE'S ALL THAT>
I hope to be more her again tomorrow. I plan to get up and ride my bike early.  Fall is creeping in.  I had some nice autumn breezes at the park this evening.  I am going to embrace it. 
First things first, I need to plan what I will be doing to exercise when the weather changes.
Treadmill, yoga, and I'm going to investigate two other things.
Tennis which I have always wanted to try and....
BOXING.
I just want to see if there is a beginners class somewhere.  LOL lOL
something about punching someone else int he face that appeals to me.
As long as they don't hit back.
Carry on my loves.  We are alright here.  Nothing to see.


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