Flaming June's Love

This is my house tonight, about an hour ago.  Yup hes reading in the tub. The boy sleeping on our bed.  I was reading a new book.  Missi at the casino with her BF, and a few of their friends.  Allie finally has a night off and went for mexican with her BF and a few friends. My laundry is everywhere. Our dog was treated for fleas. I didn't make dinner tonight because I was out shopping all day with my Mom. Bought myself stuff today, three weeks before Christmas, not a smart thing. My grey roots are growing in, and I dont want to do a damn thing about it. My eyebrows are far too wild. I am too critical of myself, but realize, no one has it all together. I need to change the cat box and the guinea pig cage. Jacks room needs a total overhaul but I dont know what to do with it. Christmas is around the corner, but I have hardly purchased anything. Tim and the girls and jack are getting the tree next week.  So I had better get the stuff out. My car is ...

He is coming home. Our prayers have been answered. Our marine is coming home. Thank You God. Thats all I can muster to say about that.

Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother. Khalil Gibran What is doubt?   How do I recall doubt?   Doubt , a status between belief and disbelief , involves uncertainty or distrust or lack of sureness of an alleged fact , an action, a motive, or a decision . Doubt brings into question some notion of a perceived " reality ", and may involve delaying or rejecting relevant action out of concerns for mistakes or faults or appropriateness. Some definitions of doubt emphasize   I doubted anyone could ever truly Love me if they really knew me.   What does it mean to truly KNOW someone?  Do you even know yourself, in order to have someone else KNOW you? To know me is to LOVE me. Well, to know ME, is a long arduous process, I imagine no one is really aware of  all their infinite details.  I have forgotten more details of today, never mind the 46 years of character building/changing events and mi...

Did I say I have the most amazing children?  Yes I did. Did I mean I am the luckiest Mom in town?  Yup. Thanksgiving day I asked the kids to come outside for twenty minutes to see if I could catch the CHRISTMAS CARD pic for the year. My 23 and 21 year old daughters agreed to come. Yes I know, they are grown, and one doesnt even live home anymore!  That is why they are so great.  They should say "thats it Mom, it s time to let go, we REVOLT!" But they smiled, groaned and got up fromt he table and followed me outside. I AM LUCKY. Had a great day today.  Enjoyed the first flurries of the year, and took a great walk. Yes I AM.  lucky. I have some pretty great friends too.  Going to walk first thing tomorrow no matter how cold it is.  Im going out and breathing in some cold, LIFE!!! Love to all. Go ahead... Its ok, you can look at the pictures more.  They really are better in real life, the pictures don't capture their al...

Yes gang, once again the HOLIDAYS ARE COMING!!!!!! I just looked throught "the blog" and read a few years of Nov posts, and I am always so EXCITED to get the holidays going, but seem to lose steam the closer it gets. I may have the answer, maybe the anticipation is BETTER than the actual EVENTS? I love thinking about the menu for dinner, I enjoy planning everyones gifts, I even spend some time thinking about what we will be wearing for certain occasions. Then... historically, I lose the excitement somewhere around the 20th. Thats when I start to wish it all over and done with. I am changing a few things on my agenda.  I THINK? I am going to lighten the Christmas day menu.  Maybe go with cold salads, ham, turkey, and all the fixings for great snadwich's, soup, and lots of appetizers. Since we have people from early Christmas morning throughout the day, we have a nice breakfast and the n start the dinner prep, not to mention all the Santa stuff that goes with having ...

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2012. We had Missi's 21st Birthday celebration last night at Mirakuya, the whole gang, the WHOLE GANG.  It was a good night. Jack has had two super weeks at school. I have been able to work a whole bunch of hours for holiday and storm makeup days. Allie and Ryan went on a little getaway weekend to Niagara falls and had a great time. Andy has finally finished the concrete wall in front of the house.  HUGE deal. Nana has been good, had a good cardiologist appt. My stomach is finally feeling bettter. I am able to go to the grocery store to get whatever I need for holiday dinners, and whatever may be on my mind for dinner. I am able to plan for Christmas and what I want to get everyone, we have enough money to get what I want to get them all. I am writing again and it feels good. I have friends that I know will be there for me if I need them. I WANT to be their person. Thats a good thing, I am thankful. I can walk tomorrow morning, I will wa...

Jack had his playdate last weekend with the neighbor boy. Andy came into the house and told us that Joshua was outside riding his bike.  When I asked Jack if he wanted to join him he said.. "well, he needs me as his friend, lets go." Approaching Josh and his sister who is also deaf but reads lips and is not autistic, I could tell jack was nervous. He wasn't quite sure how this was going to go, neither was I but we were IN IT. This is what LIVING is ALL about. These moments you will never forget, yup this is living. We walked over carrying our soccer ball.  Josh was riding his bike (without training wheels) around the middle of the street. His beautiful sister Sarah was chasing after him and pulling him to the side of the road then scolding him with sign language and shouting at him.  He smiled, nodded, and patted her hand away and kept on going. I chatted with is grandma Ann. We had  awkward silence times.  Jack got in front of josh's bike once or twi...