Flaming June's Love

Corinthians 13:12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely. I have so many memories, I believe them memories anyway, from this date fie years ago. Even if they are just imaginations of a drug induced coma and/or mind farts of desperation, I need to go with it. I recall a "knowing". I recall a waking period of time when the ways of the world and reasons for things happening seemed so clear. I had the idea that "Oh that makes sense." "Hmm why didnt I think of that." The visions or experience I had of people that had died visiting me, seemed so real. I recall a sensation of SMELLING my Pop. BEING at the cottage. FEELING safe, LOVED, cared for. It wasn't until I was close to waking that I recall pain (physical pain) worry, and fear. Of course doubters can say drugs...

I remember about ten years ago telling someone that I felt like I was in a minefield and everyone else I knew was stepping on mines, besides me. My friends father had died, someone had breast cancer, siblings were in serious car accidents, babies born with defects. These things never affected me or my family. But always felting pending doom, or a "knowing" that my time would come to grieve, panic, cry. It was during that time in my life that I made things harder for myself. I asked for drama, looked for it actually. I was "bored" and needed to "feel" something. So I tiptoed through places I shouldn't have been, and did a few things that I am not proud of. That said. I am who I am because of these experiences. I took a quiet predictable life and ground as a pepper grinder and turned it into "something else". I never anticipated life making MY LIFE the experience it has been since those days. I was a semi spoiled, overly confident, infant....

Andy's 25 year reunion. Labor Day weekend. His reunion is a family event picnic, but few of his buddies are bringing their families so I am OFF THE HOOK! I wouldnt mind going with him but it is labor day weekend and we all know where I will be. My nephew will be home on a short leave so I will be out the mountain and at Bens Birthday party. Now I met with my pal Joann last night and she was remarking a bit about her reunion not too long ago. She mentioned something about a few of the guests "MATING" following the event. Yeah well my husband is going and there will be no mating going on thank you very much. I am confident he doesn't want to MATE with anyone else. My concern is as usual women that love to mate with other womens MATES. So to all the women out there that think Andy is so handsome and sweet and considerate. He is all those things. But guess what... You dont want him. Unless you want an orange vibe driving through the middle of your living room. Love to...

I really like people watching- any people, anywhere. I like a cold nose under a warm blanket. I need a blanket even if its hot out. I cant sleep naked- through the night, I am naked periodically through the night. My clothes begin on/or off, then at some point get off or on. I wake typically the opposite of what I went to bed as. (Ask my husband how this happens.) My lips are hugely kissable, been told by several people. The smell of Jacks neck while he sleeps. Missi's hair as it is int he morning all long and wavy and thick, Defined as BEDHEAD BEAUTIFUL Allie when she comes into a room after not seeing her for a while. She changes things, just about everything with her spirit. Since moving our bed into the circle of windows, it sounds and feels as if we sleep outside. I love my husbands big hands, His tenacity, his big heart for the people he loves, and especially how much he loves our boy. I dont love it now but will someday love how jack gets into our bed EVERYmorning. I do...

Andy, Jack and I went to the beach. We left 7ish on Sunday morning and were ont he beach by 11. It was a beautiful day and the boy hasnt been in a few years and it was a cheap treat for all of us. We drove, chatted, listened to Jacks movies playing on the mini dvd player in the back. I reminisced about trips of years before with the girls and Tim. Interestingly enough Andy doesnt mind the Timmy stories. Driving on the 4th of July to the beach with our two children and two of my cousins for a week at the beach. Bumper to bumper 8 hr drive. argggh. Anywho, we went directly to the beach and jack loved the sand. He dug rivers and holes and filled with water then watched it drain. He was the most beautiful child there. I must admit though I didnt realize the extent of his speech difficulties until several children and adults looked at him like he was speaking another language. One occasion especially a mother said "what" "What did he say?" about four times. I und...

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I am full of things in my head. Jam packed full of things that need to be done. Missi's big graduation bask is this sunday, and estimated 75 bodies will be passing though the yard! I am excited, yet as always nervous of glitches. My Mom and her infinite wisdom has thought out all the details with me and we have it. Now just get my house cleaned to the Hilton standards and we are golden. Allie will be 21 tomorrow. She and I went to Jon Mayer concert over the weekend and truly I am in Love with both John mayer and Allison Elizabeth Faith B. We chatted, sang, danced, laughed, and had a great time. She is probably my favorite person to hang with. Missi had to work but understood. She is going on a little holiday with ehr BF and his family to inner harbor this week. SHe cant wait and I am totally happy for her. Then ALlie starts her traveling month of August before Nursing school starts. Florida for a week, then directly to Vegas for three days. Home for two then to Scottsdale to visi...