Flaming June's Love

Today was our first real spring like day since fall. I really enjoyed today and even pulled out the ol camera to rpove it. I havent been motivated much to take any pics since nothing is changing(Or so it seems anyway). I have attached pics of the boy since we had our walk this am. I forgot the camera when we were walking and missed alot of great shots of him and the river and the scenery and our cmetary. yes I know the cemetary seems a bit morbid but actually the history and age of the place is amazing. I will take some pics over the weekend and attach them so you can all appreciate these people long gone, but never really forgotten. Anyway my boy is here and taking his nap and then another pic of him intense. So much love for this boy. The last pic is Allies addition last Sunday to our new home. I had mentioned how I miss the flowers in the house and there they were, one snapdragon, two lily's and some hydrangea. Absolutely beautiful and all my favorites. She loves me. ...

Today is one of those days when it rains and I am fortunate to not have to work and I am hanging with my slippers and the remote and the boy and all is well. My Mom came today to stay for a few days since ANdy is away for the week. I know she is lonely since we moved and I am looking forward to her selling her place and being closer to us. The kids are all good and all have fine weekends. Andy's birthday was Sunday so I made a from scratch chocolate mint layer cake and shrimp scampi for dinner. He was pleased. He is forty one and I think looks better than ever. He is getting the grey around the ears in his hair and smile lines around his eyes but I love it. I think it makes him look happy. I am so anticipating the end of project runway this week, yes I am a junkie of reality tv. can not help it/ Working on bits and pieces of the house and it is definately coming along. I am liking it more than not liking it so that is good. My brother Dave reads my log so I now he will se...

Yeah I havent mentioned it much but we are all yes I said ALLL GOING. to Florida this year. Brother Dan was the last holdout for going on this trip since he is in the midst of a pending messy divorce. I cant wait to sit by that pool and order my first margarita. My brothers and sister inlaws annd Nieces and Nephews and my children. SO SO SO good. I know my Dad wont be there but I know with all my heart he would want us to go and have a ball all together. Mom and Dad have been paying on this time share for about 20 years and we have used it. Many families get them and never utilize them we do. I love our family vacations and am really getting psyched ofr this one with Jack and ANdy too.

I know I have everything people say they want. I have what I want and the most important thing to me are my kids. I dont ever want to have any of them feel that they arent first in my life. I will never ever desert them or leave to feel they are in anything alone. I have spent many situations feeeling that none could ever understand my feeling soI ne er shared them with anyone. I hope my lkids never feel that alone. In that case I will foreve4r be on their side, their team and first person to step to the plate for them. I dont intend to defend bad behavior or irresponsibility but the first person to tell me they are without mistakes or bad judgement gets to spank my ass with a wooden spoon. I was made to be a mother, It is the only thing thusfar in my life I think I have done right. I am not changing my ways now. If there are problems I will take care of them. I am the MOM. MOMs do those things... or are supposed to do those things, first at bat for you, take the first hit ...

Thi is My Missi. She does work on the computer like no ones business and she certainlky doesnt get it from me. This is some kind of photo manipulation she does and colors in the photos and tweeks them and she is smart beautiful and a COMPUTER NERD!!!!!

Just like I said not too much goingon here but some things. I am feeling good today. I have a lil belly thing goingon but inside I am ding ok. Why you may ask. well, I had some positive feedback today and in the strangest way I felt good about it. As too many of you know I have a history of shall I say... flirting. Well I havent done that nor had an urge to in a very long time. Today a very handsome guy was in the coffee place and all of a sudden I felt it. Havent felt it in years but yup there it was, a little voice, but not , an urge, but not compelling. I cant explain unless you also have a history of addictions! Yes I was an attention seeker and purveyor of all things "about Me" I think my heart has for the first time been involved with my urges since I met Andy and havent needed or wanted anyone else. Now I am not saying that I dont admire a good looking man, or even may I be as blunt to admit to all of blogdom I love seeing a beautiful woman. The difference...

Tonight was a night from years past. I enjoyed it but it had a bittersweetness to it. The years that I spent married to Tim but alone with the girls I spent almost every weekend at Barnes and Noble. I went there because Tim was asleep on the couch and a real grouch and we needed to get out og the house. So we went there. The girls had their regular spots and I had mine. Funny we made friends withe Saturday night regulars back then and found that there were other women in the same situation or close to the same. Either alone or as close to alone as I was at the time. Allie Missi and I would go about 7 in the evening and stay til 9 ish when Tim would leave for work and then we would stop at Blockbuster on the way home and rent the movie of the week. We spent alot of time with my best friend Maryellens daughter Jackie at the time and we were inseperable. I think that is why we are so close now. My girls and I. Then Amy came into our lives and Barnes and Noble became our place....