Flaming June's Love

A few weeks ago I wrote about my fascination with Little House on the Prairie.  I narrowed down my love for the show to a few key points. a. a comittment between ma and Pa that could withstand, everything.  b. An honest look at not having everything, but feeling as if you had it all. c. Family that never gave up on each other, through the hardest times they knew, without eachother they would fail. d. Laughter and a keen sense of humor, mixed with fair share of heartache makes for interesting company. e. Gratitude is never achieved by having it all. These two very handsome people are my grandparents.  My Mothers parents.  Alice-and Joe. This was, by my brothers account somewhere in the late 40's. My Nana was one of four sisters that were all beautiful.  Not just a bunch of pretty girls, but the Beautiful Burke sisters. A blonde, brunette, redhead, and one with dark near black hair.  look at her dress, her hair, her smile.  What a pair. He ...

Today was Jacks Christmas show at school.  As I asked him during the week what songs they would sing, he would reply Its a surprise!. I was deciding what he should wear.  Went to the boys shop and there it was.  A perfect size seven suit with shirt and tie. Screaming to me to buy.  I brought it home and it was as if it were mad for him.  He put on the tie without any complaints.  I took his picture while he was waiting to go.  Watching his cartoons and looking angelic. To some going to a Christmas show is cool, great but in our house... monumental. He stood on the stage singing the correct words to the songs, standing still, smiling and behaving. He was so "average" it brought tears to my eyes. He was "just one of the kids in first grade." How many Moms pray for average? My prayer was answered.  He was certainly far from average.  He was the most handsome young man there in my eyes.  Smiling eyes, shining eyes, waving to us f...

This is my house tonight, about an hour ago.  Yup hes reading in the tub. The boy sleeping on our bed.  I was reading a new book.  Missi at the casino with her BF, and a few of their friends.  Allie finally has a night off and went for mexican with her BF and a few friends. My laundry is everywhere. Our dog was treated for fleas. I didn't make dinner tonight because I was out shopping all day with my Mom. Bought myself stuff today, three weeks before Christmas, not a smart thing. My grey roots are growing in, and I dont want to do a damn thing about it. My eyebrows are far too wild. I am too critical of myself, but realize, no one has it all together. I need to change the cat box and the guinea pig cage. Jacks room needs a total overhaul but I dont know what to do with it. Christmas is around the corner, but I have hardly purchased anything. Tim and the girls and jack are getting the tree next week.  So I had better get the stuff out. My car is ...

He is coming home. Our prayers have been answered. Our marine is coming home. Thank You God. Thats all I can muster to say about that.

Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother. Khalil Gibran What is doubt?   How do I recall doubt?   Doubt , a status between belief and disbelief , involves uncertainty or distrust or lack of sureness of an alleged fact , an action, a motive, or a decision . Doubt brings into question some notion of a perceived " reality ", and may involve delaying or rejecting relevant action out of concerns for mistakes or faults or appropriateness. Some definitions of doubt emphasize   I doubted anyone could ever truly Love me if they really knew me.   What does it mean to truly KNOW someone?  Do you even know yourself, in order to have someone else KNOW you? To know me is to LOVE me. Well, to know ME, is a long arduous process, I imagine no one is really aware of  all their infinite details.  I have forgotten more details of today, never mind the 46 years of character building/changing events and mi...

Did I say I have the most amazing children?  Yes I did. Did I mean I am the luckiest Mom in town?  Yup. Thanksgiving day I asked the kids to come outside for twenty minutes to see if I could catch the CHRISTMAS CARD pic for the year. My 23 and 21 year old daughters agreed to come. Yes I know, they are grown, and one doesnt even live home anymore!  That is why they are so great.  They should say "thats it Mom, it s time to let go, we REVOLT!" But they smiled, groaned and got up fromt he table and followed me outside. I AM LUCKY. Had a great day today.  Enjoyed the first flurries of the year, and took a great walk. Yes I AM.  lucky. I have some pretty great friends too.  Going to walk first thing tomorrow no matter how cold it is.  Im going out and breathing in some cold, LIFE!!! Love to all. Go ahead... Its ok, you can look at the pictures more.  They really are better in real life, the pictures don't capture their al...

Yes gang, once again the HOLIDAYS ARE COMING!!!!!! I just looked throught "the blog" and read a few years of Nov posts, and I am always so EXCITED to get the holidays going, but seem to lose steam the closer it gets. I may have the answer, maybe the anticipation is BETTER than the actual EVENTS? I love thinking about the menu for dinner, I enjoy planning everyones gifts, I even spend some time thinking about what we will be wearing for certain occasions. Then... historically, I lose the excitement somewhere around the 20th. Thats when I start to wish it all over and done with. I am changing a few things on my agenda.  I THINK? I am going to lighten the Christmas day menu.  Maybe go with cold salads, ham, turkey, and all the fixings for great snadwich's, soup, and lots of appetizers. Since we have people from early Christmas morning throughout the day, we have a nice breakfast and the n start the dinner prep, not to mention all the Santa stuff that goes with having ...