Flaming June's Love

I laugh totally out loud with this show, because THIS IS MY MISSI> looks like her, sounds like her, and most of all goofy, silly smart sassy MISSI

In the movie, Sixth Sense at the end when the son and mother are in the car and he confesses his "sixth sense'.  He relays a message to his mother, from HER mother. He retells a time when the Mom was at her mothers graveside and asked her "Are you ever proud of me?, "  The son relays that the Grandmother responded with "everyday." That is often how I feel. I may not appreciate how fortunate I am, EVERYDAY. But I am proud of my children.  EVERYDAY. Now I am not as simple minded as you may think.  Do I get pissed off and wonder, "What the hell are you thinking?"  in reference to my children.  ALL THE TIME. But that is no different than any other parent wanting the best for their kids. I only want the greatest most exciting and rewarding things to come into their lives.  That said I have to understand that what I think is exciting and rewarding may not be for them.  Painful as it is, my experiences dont change the course my kids are going to t...

I haven't said too much about our trip to VEGAS. Best part by far...Danny. His flight was delayed by about 18 hrs but his arrival was still amazing.  Maybe better than if he arrived late the night before.  We were all around the pool at our resort and he walked into the pool area wearing mirrored sunglasses, red white and blue starred swimming trunks and a white tank t shirt.  He was carrying two cans of Budweiser and a a great big smile.  He was the most beautiful site I've seen in a long time. I went over and hugged him, told him I love him and just breathed him right in. All in one perfect piece. Nana hugged him and kissed him and told him how much she missed and loved him. Definitely a highlight of my life thus far. Other highlights... lying in the pool without looking for a six yr old.  My face to the sun and my mind clear. Hanging with Kaleigh. Allie and Danny and watching them make memories together.  I know I can be long gone and these kids...

Jo ann and I went for an early morning walk today.  It was a stellar morning and the light just perfect.  I havent been posting alot of pics lately so I am going to fill you up with the visuals fromthsi am. JoAnn and I a have been friends over ten years.  We starting to get to know each other about three years ago.  Her husband died, in her arms, at the age of 50 from a heart attack.  One minute doing dishes together in the kitchen next minute dead on the kitchen floor. Dramatic, but true. We rekindled our friendship one snowy day after Christmas when she showed up at our door, crying, and needing to see me. I hadn't seen she or Bob in a few years, but thought of them often concerning a new recipe, a good laugh, and the idea of a "perfect couple". I went to the door, and Jo was standing there in a snow storm crying and said "Bob is dead, I need to know if he is alright?" "You died when you had your heart attack, didn't you?, please tell me he is al...

I know I know. I have spent alot of YEARS on this blog talking about my Dad.  You have heard it all. Where are you? Do you miss me? Can you see us? Can you hear me talk to you? Did you hear all of us that day, those days? Does any of it matter now?  Does any of it matter.. at all? There are days, moments, more than others that.. HIS life feels CLOSER, than others. Maybe LIFE isnt the right word, but Dads spirit, vibe, being, charm is right next to me. Could it be a memory or a smell that brings him so close to my sense of "DAD".? My son will dance a few steps, tap his foot and rub his belly, look at me... then smile. Not to subtract from Jack , but is that you Dad?  Can jacks mannerisms that so bring you back to me, be you reminding me to remember you? While Tim and I sat in the audience last week while Alllie was nominated and received the honor of student  ambassador, Could you hear me?  I was talking to you, in my head, like a prayer. "Please...

We made a turkey for dinner.  With all the fixins.  Its October.  Allie mashed potatoes, I basted that bird and stuffed it with oranges and apples.  It turned out pretty well. More than the turkey I like the cozy warm kitchen and the SMELL of the turkey.  It feels safe, warm and comforting. Sunday Andy and I are going wtih our friends on a Wine trip day.  I dont know what to expect but I know we will be away for the day and feel grown up.  Im happy for that. Having a garage sale Saturday, selling as much stuff that we dont want or need.  saving the money and going to Vegas. Should I go to Vegas.? Well Im going. Should I? probably not.  Leave Jack with Andy for three nights is a long long time in Jackworld. Along with having no Nana or Allie. Its going to be a long time. But I am going. My nephew is going, and I want to see him, Happy, with his family and relaxed.  I want to see that.  Be a part of that memory for the rest ...

Now I`m aimin' for heaven But probably wind up down in hell Where upon this alter I will hang my guilt ridden head But it`s time I`ll take before I begin Three sheets to the wind, Three sheets to the wind Rebels are we, though heavy our hearts shall always be Ah, no ball or chain no prison shall keep We`re the rebels of the sacred heart I said no ball or chain no prison shall keep We`re the rebels of the sacred heart