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Finding the Piece.
My Dad had a saying "Keep The Peace", that was what he said to anyone as they parted ways with a handshake. I have been playing with the words lately. I think I am trying to find something new-from the old. I want to feel SOMETHING, I miss him and that has been about all, just sad missing. So in the shower I play with "Kept The Pieces" A word soduko that brings me a chuckle and some peace. I have scrambled and and ommelletted ideas of how to keep him close to my everyday. All Ive got is to "Keep The Pieces" I need to keep the pieces of what we all had, and tend to what we have all become since the end of THEN. I have a description the "sad" that hits me this time of year. Allie and I just let out a little grunt of air to describe the blanket of awareness that hits every so often that--- "Really, really, he is gone, and for a lonnnng time now." I have been having waves of the "oh shits" for about a month now. "Oh shit ...
And so it goes...
Been a long time and all is well. Lets see in a nutshell. Nana is back from her trip to Rick and Julies. She had a nice time and I learned a massive lesson. I pretended that she was dead, yes morbid but I told myself one morning "this is what it would be like without your Mother>" I didnt like it. I have recommitted to spending more time with my Mom and listening to her. I know she has alot to talk about and I want to be there for her, since she seems to always be there for me. Next topic, Andy and I celebrated 5 years of marriage. The longest, fastest, best, heartwrenching five years EVER. We had a beautiful boy that wasnt breathing when he came out then recovered, only to not speak until he was almost 5! I have had my medical issues but continue to believe I am unbeatable and indestructible. And has had three jobs and starts another new one next week. Each one an improvement from the last but stressful either way. THE HOUSE! The most beautiful ass ache on the pl...
the view from... below.
Ars longa, vita brevis, occasio praeceps, experimentum periculosum, iudicium difficile. In this commonly found Latin translation, the first two statements have been switched from the Greek original. The full text is often rendered in English as: [The] art is long, life is short, opportunity fleeting, experiment dangerous, judgment difficult.
I heard .... my heart.
It was a beautiful weather day here in NEPA. Andy was away the whole week befor and the adjustment is difficult. I am alone as the parent and adjust by Tuesday. I handle the week without too many problems and almost enjoy it. By the night I am usually totally whipped and sleep like a baby. Jack wa a good boy this week so all is well. The adjustment comes when Andy comes back. I am happy to see him but then readjustment occurs. Yesterday morning i just needed time alone. I need to "debrief" so to speak. I took the camera and went to my favorite place to just chill, the cemetery. I walked around the lovely grounds and "visited" with some of my favorites. I know some people grew up visiting cemeteries, so they arent anything new. I did not. They were always a place to drive past and not think about too much. The Forty Fort cemetery is historical as well as beautiful. Peaceful. I did something I thought only crazies did. I laid down over a grave. Just laid there...
Missi's concert and beautiful girls.
I gave a short blurb last night of the song missi sang at her concert. You can see from her photo's that she was the most beautiful girl in the world. I am reaping the benefits of my labor, in so much as I recorded the night ALlie sang the same song as a senior. I cried and puffed up with pride because of her beauty that night. This night with Missi was the same. She stood a the microphone and looked directly at her sister, father, and I. I have never heard her sing like that before. She sang from her heart and was amazing. I heard the couple behind me say Oh what a beautiful girl. I didnt turn around just wiped my eyes and felt a glow grow from my heart. I adore these girls. I enjoy them, they make me laugh, and make me want to be a better person. Forever they together are my reason for going on. The easiest people on the planet to fall in love with. Thank you. I so wish my Dad could have been there. Hakuna Matata was one of the finales and made us all smile big KNOWING S...