Flaming June's Love

Nana and I have been planning and preparing for Daveys fiftieth for a few months. We have talked about the details and guest lists and menu for a while. The who what wheres and whens not a problem. The best part, is always unplanned. Mike and Phyllis came up for the party and that is a good thing. All the cousins showed up and that too is a good thing. Great thing Jack was a good boy. Great thing Davey was surprised. Food hot, beer cold and weather relatively dry. We sat in the shelter and laughed til we couldnt breathe. It rained with lightning, thunder and we were alright. My girls were there and had fun. My ex husband was there and he was NORMAL!!! Reminded me of why I married him!! Davey will be 50 on the 16th. My Mom was doing dishes last night and said, "when your child turns fifty, it is a big deal." I thought how huge that is. SHe made him abeautiful album with all her favorite pictures of him form the time he was born through current. So so valuable. pr...

My life is so busy and truly crazy at times. Add a little pms and I am a true train wreck. I can wind myself into a tizzy and almost foam with angst over the little shit. I am so busy trying to keep everyone above water that I wonder about my mental health. Not seriously unstable...but minute to minute I can feel torn and confused. My work can be lessons in futility, I can talk and everyone nods but I dont see "light". I can say that shat my topics can be to blame but then again I can blame it on my attitude too sometimes. My girls, they are my blessings and sometimes I can string them up. I asked for them to be strong willed and courageous, then when they exercise those qualities with ME I GET PISSED. Jack has been great and all reports from school have been excellent. I hope that he can hold it together just a little bit longer and behave while hanging with the cousins. Andy and I surprisingly have been good. I think all things cant go to shit at the same time, as ...

Had a great 4th this year. I could go back and check out last year but I am pretty sure this one was better. We had quite a few people and we had lots of food and drink and lots and lots of laughs. Jack played with Ella all day and was great with her. ALlie and Kendall were here and they I beleive are in LOVE. I will go into more detail in a bit. Missi and Brandon were here and they were cute and quiet. Andy was a marvelous host. He as I have mentioned before did not have the greatest upbringing. Not terrible but I dont think he had much. I dont hear much about parties as a child or friends at his house so I believe this is something relatively new for him. He was gracious, patient, talkative and helped but not interfering. I think one of his better holidays. The food was plentiful and honestly good, if I may say so. The best part, the company. Mike and Phyllis who were one of the first couples Tim and I were friends with came for the holiday. First marriage friends at the ...

Interesting weekend for us. We went to sister in law Molly's bigass party yesterday and truly is a lovely time... IF I repeat IF you dont have a crazy wild man three almost four year old. He was truly out of his mind at times, with so many other children running around and new toys and cars to drive bikes to run people over with (yes he did that.) He has a passion for everything. It is a good thing when you are 15 and love say swimming, or 10 and love trading cards, 20 and love karate. 4 and love to go fast, well mix that with kids and moms that dont know you or why you dont "talk", it makes for a "bad Jack Experience" Well Jack had a ball, MOST of the other kids loved him, but if you werent quite fast enough or into racing down the driveway with no brakes or hardly steering and definately not looking where you are going.... not so much. One kid I overheard saying to his Mom "That kid Jack seems to cheer for everyone else.. for no particular reason....

I think these are relatively new pics, or at least not these particular pics have I posted. They are funny charming, smart and might I say beautiful. I am not afraid of who or what they are. I am so far from perfect, they know that. They as well are not perfect but I like that. I enjoy all the goofiness, experimenting they do and testing of the waters. I dont have any problems with them, I guess we just understand eachother. I am also not afraid so far of their mistakes. I have told them there is nothing we cant fix, unless you are broken. So dont F$%^ up enough to get broken, and we will be alright. Love them. PS The pics on the beach with the sandcastle titties makes me laugh.