Flaming June's Love

When did my Missi get so beautiful, She is now swimming and working out at the gym at school three days a week and she is blossoming into something ... MORE. Her boyfriend is an amazing young man and I couldnt be happier for her.

Here goes a month of blogging I should be doing but cant seem to either find the time or find the motivation to write. The latest stuff is I spent friday night at Lehigh Valley Hospital, yeeah a real blast from the past there. I was at school and felt fine. All of a sudden I had terrible nausea, sweating, hearburn, lightheadedness and thought I was going to pass out. It lasted about a minute and by that point I was in full blown panic mode and called Andy who immediately called the paramedics and I was in an als unit within ten minutes. I cant say what brought it on and truly what it was but shit it was scary. I can say that I thought it was starting all over again and I was going to die if I didnt get someone there quick. It took a good 30 minutes to get the initial workup stated at the hospital and then I think i was in panic attack mode so ther really was nothing I could do by that point. They called My cardiologist and he wanted me in Allentown immediately so ther I was in an ...

Picture of the punch for Missis party, notice the spooky hands floating in the "bloody punch" yuck.LOL My mom, aunt, cousin and daughter at the halloween party. My girls soooo lucky am I. My boy as his hero, lightning mcqueen.

Today was my Dads birthday. No one mentioned it really until tonight when Allie was leaving she stuck her head in my room and said, Happy Birthday Pop. And blew me a kiss and made her signature peace sign. I just spent the last 40 min reviewing the entries I made the past two years on this date. I am better than I was. I still have loss but it is getting better to deal with. I think I am forgetting some things. I am afraid I am forgetting how much I miss him. I dont want to forget... anything. Maybe just more comfortable with the constant discomfort. I explained to a friend it is like having a rock in your shoe, every time you take a step it pinches, you can kick it around in there and move it but it still hurts just in a different spot. Just when you forget you had a rock in your shoe, it hits your right in heel. Fucker that hurts,,, yeah I know. OK so here it is. Dad, Happy Birthday wherever you are. I hope you are hanging with some of your old cronies, maybe some lemon mer...

Picture this... My 19 yr old comes home after being at work and then went oout with her boss whom she loves like a sister. She has fun with her and enjoys her company. That is a good thing. great thing. She is sooooo lucky to have bosses that love her like a family member. More importantly she is learning about grown up life first hand. She has friends in both of them and that is good. Here is the kicker part of tonight. She gets home and she is with her friend. The frind is obviously upst. She confesses that she is upset that she is not at a real college where she can be out all the time and having fun. I said that next year when she goes away she an have all that but she obviously wasnt ready right out of HS. She staed that she knows that and she just wishes she could be having more fun. She then told me that she is worried about going home because her mom wanted her out of the house by 930 tonight so she (the mom ) could have a quiet evening at home without them (the kids...