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Here goes a month of blogging I should be doing but cant seem to either find the time or find the motivation to write.
The latest stuff is I spent friday night at Lehigh Valley Hospital, yeeah a real blast from the past there. I was at school and felt fine. All of a sudden I had terrible nausea, sweating, hearburn, lightheadedness and thought I was going to pass out. It lasted about a minute and by that point I was in full blown panic mode and called Andy who immediately called the paramedics and I was in an als unit within ten minutes. I cant say what brought it on and truly what it was but shit it was scary.
I can say that I thought it was starting all over again and I was going to die if I didnt get someone there quick.
It took a good 30 minutes to get the initial workup stated at the hospital and then I think i was in panic attack mode so ther really was nothing I could do by that point. They called My cardiologist and he wanted me in Allentown immediately so ther I was in an advanced life support flying down to Allentown. Yeah not a great feeling, when you are trying to tell yourself your ok and calm down. So I asked for an Ativan and that helped knock me down abit.
In the end I had all the studies and workups done and I am fine. I have a few skipped beats now and then but nothing evident of recurring MI or heart failure so just keep moving.
My thoughts while lying on that stretcher AGAIN.
I dont want to die
God do I love my kids
HMMMM I really love Andy I mean I REALLY LOVE ANDY. why is that so shocking well those of you that know me know that there are days when,..... truly..... He is last on my top ten list. But let me tell you all something, he is the first one there and the last to leave me and I KNOW he will Always be that man for me. He would not leave me when I was in the ambulance or at school when I was truly feeling like I was dying. A nurse a the ER told me that he was pacing in the hallway. I told her I know that, she asked if I knew how lucky I was, I told her the truth and answered
"No" I dont know how lucky I am all the time.
But I did know on Friday.
I still know today.
I hope I rememebr tomorrow.
My boy was watched by my MOM for quite a few hours and I was worried about her. He is to say the least a handful
So if you ever get the chance to visit the thought of dying, and to closely examine it let me give you a few hints.
1. Forgive yourself- The one that matters forgives you as soon as you are truly sorry.
2. Value your contribution, You mean alot more to alot of people and you wont know it unless you take a second to point them out.
3. Laugh alot more. not ust a little more or once a day. Laugh alot more.
4. Hug more people and hold 5 seconds longer.
5. Help a stranger, that stranger is someone elses most important person.
6. Listen carefully, the noise is usually people that surround you for good reasons and the quiet is usually well deserved.
7. Reminisce on the resolutions of hard times, if you made it through that, ahhh this is nothin..
8. Choose a hero, muse, The characteristic you find so intriquing about that person is probably something you have in yourself just waiting to be unleashed.
9. Say Thank you, God bless you, your welcome, it just feels better.
10. That one thing you want to get done, do it, youll feel better about yourself.
Just afew ideas, im sure they are not new to anyone but they are ideas I just sloshed onto this blog tonight because it is never too late to start again.
Quick story and I will quit for tonight-
I was at the grocery store and this elderly man was asking for his money back for somereson for a pint, yes a pint of ice cream. He had to walk back to the freezer get another and then find the reciept and it too a good 8 minutes in the express check out to get the process done.
I was two customers behind the old bugger.
as he was leaving he dropped a quarter from his pocket.
The gentleman behind him looked at it and left it on the floor.
I just looked at it and the old man walking away. I watched as the next woman looked at it and then kind of scoffed and checked her items out. I asked her if it was hers and her anser was, "No it was Mr icecreams, chuckle chuckle."
OH I said, I could see him still walking or tottering through the parking lot.
I had a few things in my hands and picked up the quarter. The checker looked at me and I said I was going to return it to him.
"I dont care what you do with it, keep it."
I checked out and huried out of the market, I looked around and there he was with his suit jacket on and blue striped tie and old brown shoes, sliding then plopping into the drivers side of an old beater. His wife was in the passenger seat I tapped on her window and held up the quarter. SHe rolled down the window and I smiled and said, He dropped this in the store. She turned tot he the gentleman and said "she brought this back, you dropped it in the store,"
He said...
"I knew I did but I couldnt bend down to get it" "I had held up the line long enough anyway"
SHe patted my hand and said God bless you.
I walked away and got into my car with my beautiful daughter and was glad to be alive today.
ps...
I realized about an hour later that in my haste to get the old man his quarter I left my second bag at the checkout, and had to send Allie back for it,
Awe, shit. LOL
The latest stuff is I spent friday night at Lehigh Valley Hospital, yeeah a real blast from the past there. I was at school and felt fine. All of a sudden I had terrible nausea, sweating, hearburn, lightheadedness and thought I was going to pass out. It lasted about a minute and by that point I was in full blown panic mode and called Andy who immediately called the paramedics and I was in an als unit within ten minutes. I cant say what brought it on and truly what it was but shit it was scary.
I can say that I thought it was starting all over again and I was going to die if I didnt get someone there quick.
It took a good 30 minutes to get the initial workup stated at the hospital and then I think i was in panic attack mode so ther really was nothing I could do by that point. They called My cardiologist and he wanted me in Allentown immediately so ther I was in an advanced life support flying down to Allentown. Yeah not a great feeling, when you are trying to tell yourself your ok and calm down. So I asked for an Ativan and that helped knock me down abit.
In the end I had all the studies and workups done and I am fine. I have a few skipped beats now and then but nothing evident of recurring MI or heart failure so just keep moving.
My thoughts while lying on that stretcher AGAIN.
I dont want to die
God do I love my kids
HMMMM I really love Andy I mean I REALLY LOVE ANDY. why is that so shocking well those of you that know me know that there are days when,..... truly..... He is last on my top ten list. But let me tell you all something, he is the first one there and the last to leave me and I KNOW he will Always be that man for me. He would not leave me when I was in the ambulance or at school when I was truly feeling like I was dying. A nurse a the ER told me that he was pacing in the hallway. I told her I know that, she asked if I knew how lucky I was, I told her the truth and answered
"No" I dont know how lucky I am all the time.
But I did know on Friday.
I still know today.
I hope I rememebr tomorrow.
My boy was watched by my MOM for quite a few hours and I was worried about her. He is to say the least a handful
So if you ever get the chance to visit the thought of dying, and to closely examine it let me give you a few hints.
1. Forgive yourself- The one that matters forgives you as soon as you are truly sorry.
2. Value your contribution, You mean alot more to alot of people and you wont know it unless you take a second to point them out.
3. Laugh alot more. not ust a little more or once a day. Laugh alot more.
4. Hug more people and hold 5 seconds longer.
5. Help a stranger, that stranger is someone elses most important person.
6. Listen carefully, the noise is usually people that surround you for good reasons and the quiet is usually well deserved.
7. Reminisce on the resolutions of hard times, if you made it through that, ahhh this is nothin..
8. Choose a hero, muse, The characteristic you find so intriquing about that person is probably something you have in yourself just waiting to be unleashed.
9. Say Thank you, God bless you, your welcome, it just feels better.
10. That one thing you want to get done, do it, youll feel better about yourself.
Just afew ideas, im sure they are not new to anyone but they are ideas I just sloshed onto this blog tonight because it is never too late to start again.
Quick story and I will quit for tonight-
I was at the grocery store and this elderly man was asking for his money back for somereson for a pint, yes a pint of ice cream. He had to walk back to the freezer get another and then find the reciept and it too a good 8 minutes in the express check out to get the process done.
I was two customers behind the old bugger.
as he was leaving he dropped a quarter from his pocket.
The gentleman behind him looked at it and left it on the floor.
I just looked at it and the old man walking away. I watched as the next woman looked at it and then kind of scoffed and checked her items out. I asked her if it was hers and her anser was, "No it was Mr icecreams, chuckle chuckle."
OH I said, I could see him still walking or tottering through the parking lot.
I had a few things in my hands and picked up the quarter. The checker looked at me and I said I was going to return it to him.
"I dont care what you do with it, keep it."
I checked out and huried out of the market, I looked around and there he was with his suit jacket on and blue striped tie and old brown shoes, sliding then plopping into the drivers side of an old beater. His wife was in the passenger seat I tapped on her window and held up the quarter. SHe rolled down the window and I smiled and said, He dropped this in the store. She turned tot he the gentleman and said "she brought this back, you dropped it in the store,"
He said...
"I knew I did but I couldnt bend down to get it" "I had held up the line long enough anyway"
SHe patted my hand and said God bless you.
I walked away and got into my car with my beautiful daughter and was glad to be alive today.
ps...
I realized about an hour later that in my haste to get the old man his quarter I left my second bag at the checkout, and had to send Allie back for it,
Awe, shit. LOL
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