Flaming June's Love

I am good thank you. My boy was an angel today. He was smart and beautiful and I so want to share him with everyone. I have put his app in for montessori school for the fall. I think he will blossom. Missi is counting the days til the end of school. I dont blame her. Allie is doing fine and working hard everyday. Out in the evenings but what else do 18 yr olds do? Andy is away on business and home tomorrow for the weekend. I am just kinda the door holder I feel sometimes. I greet and listen and uhhuh everyone and add my two cents when I feel necessary but I dont feel as though I share too much of my own stuff. I am sure they would listen but does it all really matter? I have classrooms full of students. They are adult learners coming back to school for a career and I am their leader to say. I teach them stuff they thought they could never learn. I am the class they look forward to because I "encourage them and make then feel as thought hey can do it." I dont think the...

Cant explain it, it doesnt mean anything. I so wanted to call my ex today. I needed that almighty validation again. Yeah I so in love with that word lately. Needy? Maybe but I sometimes need that somebody that was there, wherever i am traveling back to I need to reminisce with someone... else. Today was the Memorail days of my past. Memorial weekends of allnighters with lots of beer and laughing til you pee your pants. Family that drives you crazy but you would kill for without a second thought. Most of all nights beside a fire so hot and beautiful, mesmerizing dancing and safe. Music that everyone knew the words too. Stories of out past that seemed unreal. Memories of my grandparents. My Aunts and uncles. My brothers as teens, twenties, thirties. Us as kids, our kids as kids. My mom and dad sitting at the fire holding hands chatting between themselves. Laughing out loud. Crossing the street to check on sleeping babies, or sneak a quickie maybe. Lots and lots of beer. lots and...

I am feeling good. Physically and emotionally I feel strong. I rode my bike today about three miles with Jack on the back. I really need a pic of that so you can appreciate the scene of the two of us riding that bike. It was a truly spectacular day and clear blue skies with a beautiful breeze blowing. Cool fresh air and we went along the river and how the scene has changed since we began our walks. As you stand up on the dike now the whole valley surrounds you with green trees and blue skies and sparkling river. The dike project now finished is amazing to walk or bike. I was riding and all I could think was how beautiful the whole scene was. Kids playing soccer on one side of me the river on another. A small biplane flying round over head since there is a small private airport in our town, people take lessons and fly about the river and admire the scene. People say hi to you talk to Jack and really a nice place to be. Our house today looks beautiful. Andy has been working h...

If you dont know the stiry il;l make it quick and hopefully painless. Heartattack and a Dr that literally walked in on it and saved my life by thinking fast and having excellent timing. I remember gong into congestive heart failure and respiratory failure and grabbing him by his tie and telling him "I cant breathe, dont let me die." He said, "Im really trying." I also rememember being intubated while awake(I dont suggest that AT ALL) and he was standing behind a glasss window in the Cath lab and he had his hands in his hair and staring at me. I remember catching his eye and thinking this guy has to help me. Dr. G is about 6 feet tall, daerk salt and pepper hair about thre years alder than me and so down to earth and normal its unbeleievable. He is very much like my brother Dan. Cautious, watchful but sharp. To try to convey how I feel about this guy think about someone.... hmmm... I have no desire to sleep with the guy, (Which for those who know me is quite A...

I wasnt feelin that qell yesterday so plopped on the bed and hit some cahnnels on the tube that I never get to. I found the Glenn Miller story. Yeah a classic and so much a family thing. I learned to dance from my Dad. He taught me our living room in NJ. It was a ten minute lesson on the basics, the only thing was that I never neede to know how to dance unless I was with him. We could dance I must say. He was an excellent lead and Icould follow him through any music and any song. Spins dips, jitterbugs, swing and we always always had a great time. In the mood was a classic for us. swing was a good one for us. He sparkled and lead me around any foor and I havent had that ever since nor will I ever. Its ok though some things are meant to be just US. ps There were mornings I was woken up with this music playing and Dad singing his heart out to us. Cant ever forget that.

Yeah well the title says almost all of it doesnt it. LOL Allie had the pukers yesterday, Missi the night before ANdy has the crappers today and I just feel like Im gonna explode! Dont know if Im gonna puke or the other but I am really bloated. Things are relatively good here. All is quiet in the world and I am feeling good. Andy and I will be married THREE Years on Thursday. Yup its true. It went really fast and we have done so much in those few years. I do beleive we should just skip to ten years since we have hit so many milestones in such a short time.! I am attaching our wedding song from youtube and a pic from our wedding day if I can find one on this computer. He doesnt read this much so when you do Babe know that even when I am doubting everything and afraid I always LOVE you. You can make me laugh at the best and worst t imes and there isnt a day that goes by that I dont think how handsome you are.