Flaming June's Love

Top pic of Missi cuz I love her Next few of the cabinets in the kitchen about to be installed. The last pic is the sitting area in our bedroom, note the tray ceiling yeah i love it. I am so terribly confused.

OK I shouldnt be saying this out loud but I am really really nervous. I put the For Sale sign out yesterday at 4 pm I now have had two calls already for it and someone coming tomorrow at 10 am. I am asking an extremely low amount for the house because I want it sold quickly without the realtor involvement and just pay what I owe with enough to but some furniture for the house. I might have 5 grand left over, maybe. OK here is the kicker. I am selling the last thing that is mine. I will have no plan B Nothing to fall back on if THINGS dont work out. Women readers really know what I mean. Men readers... oh if any.. (Other than ANdy occasionaly) not so much. I am not committed to the relationship, I am a doubter, I dont trust, I am a pessimist. uhhhh,,, yes,... yes and yes,, and yup/. I love my husband and dont want anything to happen to us. I also love my children and myself enough to know that I will NEVER EVER BE WITHOUT THEM> Without any money, no income to speak of and parta...

I know they look a little ummm sassy LOL But I think they are beautiful and they are so grown up. Out for dinner with their girlfriends tonight for a birthday celebration. I cant get over Missi. Something is happening to hre and it seems as if it is overnight. Love these girls.

First of all look at that light on her. It kinda freaked me out. I think it is the angels spreading wings over her. Maybe my dad shining a smile over her. ANYWAY>>>>> Allie went to a Phillies game last night. They lost 12 nuthin but they had fun I guess. She called later on and said she didnt feel good and wanted to come home for the weekend. I so want to go and get her I just hope that she isnt getting home sick. She has been complaining of stomach problems for a week or so and that she feels "pukey" all the time. I want her well and not nervous all the time. She doesnt look sick in this pic from the game, I do know that she can be in real discomfort and wouldnt let anyone else know. Either way i am so in love with these kids that if she wants to come home I will go on Friday after work and get her. Happily, excitedly, gratefully.

Yes I can do without diamonds, furs, new cars and new clothes. It is sheetrock that gets me hot and bothered. I walked intot he house today and there are walls. So walls and ceiling and corners that I didnt know we had. Closets that appear smaller and bathrooms that are bigger. What is my anticipated orgasmic idea.... Yes the kitchen. My best bud Sue has been teasing me incessantly taht I dont cook why get such an amzing kitchen. Well I may not be the best cook but I have kids that sit in the kitchen. Thats enough for me. I grew up in a kitchen sitting house. I come from a long line of kitchen sitters and dammit I want our new home to be kitchen sitting heaven. Island, Bar with room for 6 yes 6 barstools. A window seat with room for three comfortably. Yup the cosiest kitchen sitting bonding snacking eating area of your life and you are all all all invited. Just dont ask for any kind of glamorous food cuz this girl is a meat and taters and real good at snacks. Open room be...

Can anyone tell me if I am a normal woman? I sometimes feel like I am an absolute basket case and deserve a quiet room with green walls and no mirrors or shoelaces. I can say that I want out sometimes. Out of what you may ask? well at the moment I want out of everything. I will keep my kids but that is a stretch too sometimes. i think any marriage that survives the building of a house deserves a five year hiatus when it is over. I am now a the point where I wouldnt mind the mess just caving in. Not really but I do feel as though I cant make a decent decision nor am I capable or DESERVING of anything. I watch enough tv to know that houses go over budget. Now try putting in a kitchen with decent cabinets and a (beautiful ) countertop under budget. Now add appliances and sinks and the tax and yup I am over budget. 2300 bucks worth. I have no problem getting the washer and dryer off the list and keep mine, to keep the granite top. But you know what? I have a feeling that the ...