LIFE.... I mean HOUSE for sale.

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OK I shouldnt be saying this out loud but I am really really nervous.
I put the For Sale sign out yesterday at 4 pm I now have had two calls already for it and someone coming tomorrow at 10 am.
I am asking an extremely low amount for the house because I want it sold quickly without the realtor involvement and just pay what I owe with enough to but some furniture for the house. I might have 5 grand left over, maybe.
OK here is the kicker.
I am selling the last thing that is mine.
I will have no plan B
Nothing to fall back on if THINGS dont work out.
Women readers really know what I mean.
Men readers... oh if any.. (Other than ANdy occasionaly) not so much.
I am not committed to the relationship, I am a doubter, I dont trust, I am a pessimist.


uhhhh,,,
yes,... yes and yes,, and yup/.
I love my husband and dont want anything to happen to us.
I also love my children and myself enough to know that I will NEVER EVER BE WITHOUT THEM>
Without any money, no income to speak of and partailly disabled I am now putting my whole entire now and forever in someone elses hands.
I know that this house in not worth much. cash wise like I said I am not getting anything for it.
BUT I always had someplace to live without fear or feeling of oweing anyone.

I will sell the house, I will move into the new house and I am going to be very happy.
I have no choice now.

PS. NOTE TO ALL>::::
Be careful what you pray for you just may get what you wanted.

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