Flaming June's Love

There was a time in my life when I was just a thrill junkie. I realize now that I married too young and to the wrong guy. Oh well. Anyway. I met a really great guy when I was already married about 7-8 years. Chance meeting. We met at work and really as soon as I saw him I thought MINE MINE MINE!!!! A friendship with the sexual tension that just perculated. I was 27 he was 15 years older than I. I just thought he was the most beautiful thing I ever saw. Bald, moustache, green eyes. Big muscles. He was divorced with a daughter the same age as my own. We would talk on the nights that we worked. I would dress for him and do my hair ont he nights he was there. About three months into this "thing" I had to leave the job. We were moving to PA. We - my husband and my two children and me. For the best... I thought before this got too serious. We said our goodbyes and never touched one another. I do know that we- or I- said if I still feel the same 6 months from no...

This is a picture of the house on Friday morning. It is now fully walled and framed for the first floor/ As I have said it has been very exciting but moreso now because everything we have talkedc about for the past five years are now in real time. Amazing. Andy bought this property when we were dating only a few months. He had always dreamed of putting "the house" on it. He tore down an existing home by himself plank by plank. brick by brick. Now the house is on its way up. We were there again tonight standing inside the walls and I pretended the doorbell rang, silly but true. So much to do but with Andy around I really believe anything is possible. The other pic is Missi sleeping on the couch this morning when Andy left for the guard. She is an angel. The second is her self portrait. I know she would shit and kill me for putting it on here but she wont see it. I love it I think she is gorgeous. I chose the front door for the house and it is full glass with an ...

Our new house is now up to the first floor. That means that the walls are up on the first floor and windows obviously cut out and doors cut out. Andy and I stood on the first floor and looked out to the view we will have. It is really awesome. We worked hard to decide which side to put the porch on and it worked out beautiful. We can see the river and the banks for the river. There is a landscaping business up the road and it is great. A little too convenient for the plant buying- but I guess it is a blessing. We cant decide if the exterior should be blue or yellow. Of course I am the yellow and he is the blue. How about yellow with blue trim? Anyway I have always wanted to build a house and here it is. We havent actually had any fights over anything yet but we are just gettting started. LOL The kitchen is an unusual shape. This is because we added two and ahalf feet to the length and I am now hoping we did the right thing when we stood there tonight it felt awkward. We wil...

oatmeal cookies mom made me. mmmmm mmmm goood. My new vase I love it. My pencil drawing of sleeping baby unmarked unsigned but beautiful I will have to find the right spot for this baby.

I know Andy has an intuitive side when it comes to how I am feeling. I see it more everyday. I had been feeling somewhat overwhelmed by the whole house issue and the builders and money and work and baby, and the Paxil. He said that Sunday would be a great day for us that we needed. We jumped into the truck and grabbed the baby and took off. We wandered the poconos and then ended up at about 6 different antique shops and a lovely lunch. We purchased a hand thrown pot vase and I love it. He found a stack of old train magazines and we also purchased a painting similar to Mary Cassatt. We talked and didnt talk. I do like him. I like him he makes me laugh and all that is good. I am lucky. Our boy got his big boy haircut on Saturday I will post some pics of him. Allie had a great time at the prom and came home in one piece. Missi had a date on Saturday night and had a great time. Andy is going out of town on Tues until Friday and then away for the weekend. I ll miss him. I will...