Flaming June's Love

So this is a picture of heaven according to someone at nasa. Im down with that idea looks ok. IS this Jesus? Is He the son of God, the salvation and one way to heaven. This is what he looks like in Suzidom Lots and Lots of flowers. My heaven blooms of every color. Trees with leaves that change the colors of fall but never fall off. Breezes that blow cool in your face but warm and comforting on your body. Midnight blue skies at night with stars that look out into the lives of the people on earth so I can peek an see hows it going for everyone. I dream that I can fly sometimes. I would like that in heaven. coasting, floating, easy blowing wind. above trees. I hope for paints of everycolor and brushes that dont ever need cleaning. canvas' that are of abundant sizes and textures. People that want them when I am done and are happy to have. Children babies without mothers. I will love them hold them nurse them and sing rock and love them until their mommies come. Then I get ...

Yup my friend Ruth the other night asked if Jack had had the flu yet. No not yet knock on wood. Well didnt the devil heart me knock and on Wednesday night the poor bugger puked up dinner. We thought it was just Dad and the boy roughhousing so we calmed down and then it started. Turkey rice and carrots spewed all over the place. The poor kid didnt know what to do with himself. He would start to gag and then run. Me chasing behind with a bucket attempting to catch vomit. Then started the crying and fever. I gave him advil and puke. Pedialyte, puke. sleep, cry, puke, repeat. My poor bugger. anyway today was the first decent day since then. One really loose stool and 50% appetite, no fever. Neither of us or say the three of us have slept decent since then so I hope tonight will be the first. OK wqith me now the latest. I have been on Paxil, which is an antianxiety, antidepressant for many years. I really dont need it but the withdrawal from this "non habit forming...

Dropped off the boy at daycare today and he didnt look back. Andy and I stood there almost ready to cry, both of us! and he went to his room and sat in a corner with three other kids and picked up some blocks and started to play. We kept saying bye bye bye. he kept playing and not turning back. My day went great. Ive still got it. The class went off without a hitch. Students were great and just like it never lapsed. ANdy and I went out for lunch together. It so brought me back to when we were dating. We used to meet for lunch and when we werent having nooners at his apartment we went for lunch and read all the papers together. We read the papers today. slowly scanning a reading all the articles of interest to the end. No baby yelling no prechewing food or checking for temp!. It was nice. We then went to the house site. We now have a fifty foot square 12 foot deep hole. Yeah its official a house will be there. Andy was so excited that he couldnt keep away. He brought th...

Me and my babies from a childrens book with amazing poetry. Mother earth sending her child Autumn to bed. Beautiful for Susan Beautiful concept and I love this one.

Tomorrow after a long hiatus I return to the classroom. Yup, the classroom. I left teaching in 2004. Worked in Dialysis for one year and had the baby heart attack and so on. I am now returning to the workforce and thought the best place to start was where I felt my best. I loved teaching. I am really really anxious though. I have my lesson plan about ready although I could teach it by memory at one time. I have to prepare. Big time work hours I tell you. 830 to 1130. Mon and Wed. to start. pathetic but true. I will work up to more I have to make sure I still have some brain cells left. Here is the kicker. the boy is going to preschool tomorrow. I will be dropping off the child I dont let strangers touch. I dont let some of my relatives either LOL. I will leave him at daycare tomorrow with complete strangers. 8 am to 3. mon and wed. He loved visiting hugging everyone saying love you. love you.running around. I will need to let him go in the am. let him go let him ...

The pics I posted this am I wanted to tell you about. The first pic is Allie at her LAST HS Basketball game. She cheered her last game in Allentown last weekend and Joe the neighbor and I went to see it. It was bittersweet to say the least. I am excited for her to go to college but then again HS with my girls has been so good and enjoyable. The handsome young man next to Allie is Je the neighbor. He and Allie hav ebeen best friends for about six years. Allie and he have a relationship that is truly a joy to watch. They have never taken their friendship anywhere but friends, but Joe has said that he and Allie will someday get married. He loves her and knows she loves him she just doesnt know it yet. HMMMM I like that. I love Joe like a son. His father died 6 years ago in a terrible accident and since then he has been almost one of my own. He was always skinny short inconspicuous JOE. Now Joe the neighbor is 6'1" thin but obviously a young George Clooney. I love t...