Flaming June's Love

Yeah I havent mentioned it much but we are all yes I said ALLL GOING. to Florida this year. Brother Dan was the last holdout for going on this trip since he is in the midst of a pending messy divorce. I cant wait to sit by that pool and order my first margarita. My brothers and sister inlaws annd Nieces and Nephews and my children. SO SO SO good. I know my Dad wont be there but I know with all my heart he would want us to go and have a ball all together. Mom and Dad have been paying on this time share for about 20 years and we have used it. Many families get them and never utilize them we do. I love our family vacations and am really getting psyched ofr this one with Jack and ANdy too.

I know I have everything people say they want. I have what I want and the most important thing to me are my kids. I dont ever want to have any of them feel that they arent first in my life. I will never ever desert them or leave to feel they are in anything alone. I have spent many situations feeeling that none could ever understand my feeling soI ne er shared them with anyone. I hope my lkids never feel that alone. In that case I will foreve4r be on their side, their team and first person to step to the plate for them. I dont intend to defend bad behavior or irresponsibility but the first person to tell me they are without mistakes or bad judgement gets to spank my ass with a wooden spoon. I was made to be a mother, It is the only thing thusfar in my life I think I have done right. I am not changing my ways now. If there are problems I will take care of them. I am the MOM. MOMs do those things... or are supposed to do those things, first at bat for you, take the first hit ...

Thi is My Missi. She does work on the computer like no ones business and she certainlky doesnt get it from me. This is some kind of photo manipulation she does and colors in the photos and tweeks them and she is smart beautiful and a COMPUTER NERD!!!!!

Just like I said not too much goingon here but some things. I am feeling good today. I have a lil belly thing goingon but inside I am ding ok. Why you may ask. well, I had some positive feedback today and in the strangest way I felt good about it. As too many of you know I have a history of shall I say... flirting. Well I havent done that nor had an urge to in a very long time. Today a very handsome guy was in the coffee place and all of a sudden I felt it. Havent felt it in years but yup there it was, a little voice, but not , an urge, but not compelling. I cant explain unless you also have a history of addictions! Yes I was an attention seeker and purveyor of all things "about Me" I think my heart has for the first time been involved with my urges since I met Andy and havent needed or wanted anyone else. Now I am not saying that I dont admire a good looking man, or even may I be as blunt to admit to all of blogdom I love seeing a beautiful woman. The difference...

Tonight was a night from years past. I enjoyed it but it had a bittersweetness to it. The years that I spent married to Tim but alone with the girls I spent almost every weekend at Barnes and Noble. I went there because Tim was asleep on the couch and a real grouch and we needed to get out og the house. So we went there. The girls had their regular spots and I had mine. Funny we made friends withe Saturday night regulars back then and found that there were other women in the same situation or close to the same. Either alone or as close to alone as I was at the time. Allie Missi and I would go about 7 in the evening and stay til 9 ish when Tim would leave for work and then we would stop at Blockbuster on the way home and rent the movie of the week. We spent alot of time with my best friend Maryellens daughter Jackie at the time and we were inseperable. I think that is why we are so close now. My girls and I. Then Amy came into our lives and Barnes and Noble became our place....

Found this one after I posted the last time and have to say I love this one too. The dog doesnt get the appreciated mention here on the blog as much as I should. She is loved and she is great and I dont know what we will do without her when the day comes that she isnt part of this family anymore.

OK the first picture is of our home from the top of the dyke. We are the blue house. Andy had a dream years ago fo the day when he could stand up there and see his home. ANd this is the first pic of it. I think I will do something special with it for his birthday coming up next week. The other pics are the kids on the dyke snowsledding. You can see the river behind them and the bridge further back in the distance. The last pic is of Andy dragging Jack up on the sled to the top and then the squeals all the way down. I was at home watching out the window and could hear them screaming. Yes all of them. I wanted to go but had a pizza in the oven and didnt get out quick enough. I hope to go tonight by the moonlight. how cool would that be? I do have a great family. I know it. I am truly truly truly lucky.

I mnetioned my teacups and I hope you can appreciate them just a little bit with this pic. I have two other cases full of the pretties. The other pic is of the kitchen and the lights that I chose for the island. I know they dont look like much but they again are things that I love. While on the topic of LOVE here ismy boy Jack adn sionce I havent posted ina while you can see he has been growing while I have been away from my computer. He was sick for a bout a good week and lost a few pounds which is a ltot when you only weigh thirty. He is pirking up and starting to come around. His pic of him sleeping is a glimpse at his father asleep. The similarities are really starting to show. I went to the lawyer today and if i can say that it was the worst I mean it was the worst. The women that I met with are the paralegals and nurses that reviewed my Dads case. They were all there inthe conference room and i knew something was up when they were all there. I went in and his chart was all...

FLOGGING MOLLY LYRICS "If I Ever Leave This World Alive" If I ever leave this world alive I'll thank for all the things you did in my life If I ever leave this world alive I'll come back down and sit beside your feet tonight Wherever I am you'll always be More than just a memory If I ever leave this world alive If I ever leave this world alive I'll take on all the sadness That I left behind If I ever leave this world alive The madness that you feel will soon subside So in a word don't shed a tear I'll be here when it all gets weird If I ever leave this world alive So when in doubt just call my name Just before you go insane If I ever leave this world Hey I may never leave this world But if I ever leave this world alive She says I'm okay; I'm alright, Though you have gone from my life You said that it would, Now everything should be all right She says I'm okay; I'm alright, Though you have gone from my life You said that it would, Now ev...

I know I have received some flack concerning my lack of writing lately. But with all my heart intact as far as I know I can say that we are officially into our new home and it is feeling mor and more like home everyday. I have put my teacups up in the kitchen and those of you that know me know that they are my babies. They look beautiful and are on the walls of the nook and the light in ther is beautiful so my little treasures are just showing off all day long. I have put some window treatments up but nothin permanent. I am getting along fine and think we can be alright here. A few new things going on. I o to see the lawyer tomorrow concerning my Dad and that will either be the begining or the end of the case. I thought I wanted it to be the begining but honestly I kinda hope it is the end. My heart still hurts ona daily basis and the guilt that I feel is still there. Selfishly I want them to say that there was nothing done wrong and he was just ready. I have feared all along ...

As you can see I am the luckiest woman on the planet. My little girl went to her first formal last night and obviously she was truly a vision. She was so calm and cool. More than i thought she would be. Her date was a cute shy young man, but as we all know those are the ones to be careful of. LOL She had a great time and cant wait to get dolled up again for prom. (If she gets asked of o\course) They went in a limousine and she got some beautiful roses. i am so happy for her she has had a few rough years with being the LITTLE sister and I think she has hit her stride now and coming out of her shell. Now nelieve you me she is not candidate for Miss AMerica, she may look good but she is certainly opinionated, and not afraid to speak her mind. so red carpet... not so much, cover of vogue. Yeah... Other pics of the house. My guy and our son hanging around tweaking things this am. As you can tell we are getting there, but not quite yet. I am happy though. I think I am really happ...

Yup it is official, we are the address 501. Andy and I have talked for the past five years about the potential at the address 501 you know what street. He more than I to be honest, but anyway. I have bought more magazines with the idea of the house we were going to build at 501 someday and tonight, yes tonight we are all here and feeling.... love. I will be attaching some photos of the place and might I say in advance there are some things not quite there yet, molding and curtains but I am so in love with this place. Andy and I sat at the kitchen table about two or three years ago and chose the floor plan and I dreamed of the kitchen looking into the family room and now I hope you can share in my joy. I baked a carrot cake this am and enjoyed my kids watching tv and laughing together. We had a wicked ice storm today so We were all home other than ANdy. Andy will be leaving sunday and wont be back until friday so a long week ahead. Love to all and talk to you soon.