Flaming June's Love

Been a long time and all is well. Lets see in a nutshell. Nana is back from her trip to Rick and Julies. She had a nice time and I learned a massive lesson. I pretended that she was dead, yes morbid but I told myself one morning "this is what it would be like without your Mother>" I didnt like it. I have recommitted to spending more time with my Mom and listening to her. I know she has alot to talk about and I want to be there for her, since she seems to always be there for me. Next topic, Andy and I celebrated 5 years of marriage. The longest, fastest, best, heartwrenching five years EVER. We had a beautiful boy that wasnt breathing when he came out then recovered, only to not speak until he was almost 5! I have had my medical issues but continue to believe I am unbeatable and indestructible. And has had three jobs and starts another new one next week. Each one an improvement from the last but stressful either way. THE HOUSE! The most beautiful ass ache on the pl...

Other than we have a beautiful boy.

Ars longa, vita brevis, occasio praeceps, experimentum periculosum, iudicium difficile. In this commonly found Latin translation, the first two statements have been switched from the Greek original. The full text is often rendered in English as: [The] art is long, life is short, opportunity fleeting, experiment dangerous, judgment difficult.

It was a beautiful weather day here in NEPA. Andy was away the whole week befor and the adjustment is difficult. I am alone as the parent and adjust by Tuesday. I handle the week without too many problems and almost enjoy it. By the night I am usually totally whipped and sleep like a baby. Jack wa a good boy this week so all is well. The adjustment comes when Andy comes back. I am happy to see him but then readjustment occurs. Yesterday morning i just needed time alone. I need to "debrief" so to speak. I took the camera and went to my favorite place to just chill, the cemetery. I walked around the lovely grounds and "visited" with some of my favorites. I know some people grew up visiting cemeteries, so they arent anything new. I did not. They were always a place to drive past and not think about too much. The Forty Fort cemetery is historical as well as beautiful. Peaceful. I did something I thought only crazies did. I laid down over a grave. Just laid there...

I gave a short blurb last night of the song missi sang at her concert. You can see from her photo's that she was the most beautiful girl in the world. I am reaping the benefits of my labor, in so much as I recorded the night ALlie sang the same song as a senior. I cried and puffed up with pride because of her beauty that night. This night with Missi was the same. She stood a the microphone and looked directly at her sister, father, and I. I have never heard her sing like that before. She sang from her heart and was amazing. I heard the couple behind me say Oh what a beautiful girl. I didnt turn around just wiped my eyes and felt a glow grow from my heart. I adore these girls. I enjoy them, they make me laugh, and make me want to be a better person. Forever they together are my reason for going on. The easiest people on the planet to fall in love with. Thank you. I so wish my Dad could have been there. Hakuna Matata was one of the finales and made us all smile big KNOWING S...

Andy and I went to NYC last weekend with Jack and had a lovely weekend. We walked the streets of NYC and explored Central park. We went to the Intrepid and a long boat ride around the island of Manhattan. It was a nice time. On our ride home we both called our immediate families. My brothers, mom and Andy called his mom and decided to call his father. His dad answered the phone and Andy wished him Happy Easter Dad. "heres Jean" My strong, capable independent husband visibly shrinks. He deflated in front of me. Why is it that a man that deserves no respect at all, from a son that wants only to have a father and grand father for his son- walks this planet AT ALL> Why is this selfish, self absorbed, small minded, egomaniac breathing, when my Dad is a box of dust and a few great pictures.? My daughters knew what it meant to have a Grandfather, not a Dad but that someone else that is always on your side. My son, who needs more men in his life because he IS A BOY, has NO GRA...