Flaming June's Love

I have found that songs and lyrics are in direct relationship with time and place for me. This song was popular at a time when Tim and I were in the last breathes of our marriage. I knew it was over yet had no idea that I could be partly responsible for the END. I can now look back and recognize my huge errors. That said, I wouldnt change a thing. The song talks about how you build your life around someone else and how whent he person changes or leaves you are changed. Who and what you are is defined by that other person. Not wholly, but they are part of your label. Now I listen to that song and I realize that I am no longer defined by my husband. My Andy adds to who and what I am. I moreso enjoy the reference to how my girls are changing and adding more to my life on a daily basis. Missi got her acceptance letter to the college of art of her choice. Her first choice school critiqued her portfolio and have her three assignments to do and they chose her for the class begining Fall...

We walked in the snow tonight. In the night that was lit by glowing white snow on the ground. He kicked up fluffs which sparkled off his red hat. His nose was red, his cheeks rosy. He walked and ran and chatted about everything. the mud, the footprints, the snowflakes, his boots, The rabbits, the other kids, the river, the water, the dog, my boots, the snowplows. It was dark out but the sky was glowing of of the whiteness of the ground. We walked by the river and heard water running past us to a faraway place. Cold, swirling dark. We walked past a few homes with their lights all shining inside. So cozy in there. We walked down to where the road ends and looked at our own house and I said "Do you like our house too Jack?" "Oh Mommy its the best house ever!" Oh thats because we love each other there. "Oh Mommy I love you with all my heart" Good then lets go home and get cozy snuggly. "OK lets go get Fumfy." He is now asleep and I am in bed wat...

"I pray you'll be alright And watch us where we go And help us to be wise In times when we don't know Let this be our prayer When we lose our way Lead us to a place Guide us with your grace To a place where we'll be safe I pray we'll find your light And hold it in our hearts When stars go out each night Remind us where you are Let this be our prayer When shadows fill our day Lead us to a place Guide us with your grace Give us faith so we'll be safe A world where pain and sorrow Will be ended And every heart that's broken Will be mended And we'll remember we Are all God's children Reaching out to touch you Reaching to the sky We ask that life be kind And watch us from above We hope that soon we'll find Another soul to love Let this be our prayer Just like every child Lead to find a place Guide us with your grace Give us faith so we'll be safe..."

Well- We had snow, My best guy and I went for a walk. The gate is across the street from our home and in the field next to the river. Beautiful Jack Got a haircut, boo, We went tot he museum Yeahhh. Missi built a snowman, yippeeee. Best funny part tomorrow is senior skip day and we told her she couldnt skip. Teasingly, said no your going. Andy was very convincing and I guess she was pissed. She took her shower and left us a message for our shower night. Senior skip or bust. SHe is sweet smart and I love hr more every second of every day. She earned her skip day. BTW the letters are Jacks for his vocab growth. In the shower- hey whatever it is whatever it takes right? My brain is inside my skull. I saw it last night during my MRI of the brain. I have had a tremor of the right hand and arm. About two months or so. the Dr being overreactive and checking for all the diseases that you would rather take the pipe than have. MS, Parkinsons, yeah all happy words that turn your head into ...

Slow down, we've got time left to be lazy All the kids have bloomed from babies into flowers in our eyes. We've got 50 good years left to spend out in the garden I don't care to beg your pardon, We should live until we die. We were barely 18 when we'd crossed collective hearts. It was cold, but it got warm when you'd barely crossed my eye. and then you turned, put out your hand, and you asked me to dance. I knew nothing of romance, but it was love at second sight. I swear when I grow up, I won't just buy you a rose. I will buy the flower shop, and you will never be lonely. Even if the sun stops waking up over the fields I will not leave, I will not leave 'till it's our time. So just take my hand, you know that I will never leave your side. It was the winter of '86, and all the fields had frozen over. So we moved to Arizona to save our only son and now he's turning to a man, although he thinks just like his mother, he believes we're all just l...

"Fix You" When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears stream down on your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down on your face And on your face I... Tears stream down on your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down on your face And on your face I... Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you