Flaming June's Love

We have had no snow this year, everyone else on the east coast has been slammed, we have officially had two snow occasions that were gone within two days. Jack has all his "snow attire" prepared. yet no snow. This foreboding map will hopefully qualify as an event. One that warrants boots, snow pants and TWO PAIR OF GLOVES!!!!! I have chili in the crock pot so there must be snow on the way, I am SOOO READY!!!

I have been working in my head on what to write about. A few flashes of ideas that kinda die out after the second paragraph. I walked the dog this morning after putting jack on the bus. I decided to stand in the cold by the river and just wait. wait, waiting.... yeah waiting for a message or sign. Not necessarily from anyone or in reference to anything in particular. It could be I was waiting for inspiration, motivation, DIVINE INTERVENTION. I like to feel MOVED, GUIDED by something ELSE. It doesnt happen often but I have felt it. Silly things such as "I need to kiss you, right now" "I will hug this child til he screams "LET GO MAAWM" "I am going to repeat myself in class until the lost soul in the back smiles at me and is WITH ME." That happens I must say. I feel rewarded at work maybe once a week. My rewards at work are much more valuable than many jobs I can imagine. I have people learning something. FROM ME. I see excitement, intensity and pride...

Posted the video because I love the song. My sentiments for tonight are about a topic I try not to dwell on. But today I was smacked with some truth. Since Andy was inthe Army and recently retired we were able to continue on the health insurance that comes with it. Our 18 months is up in another month. Andys insurance through his work is very expensive, 1200 a month for the family. My work does not offer insurance for its part time employees. We talked last night about searching for a plan for the family independently. Blue cross blue shield, aetna, something commercial for all of us and maybe it would be cheaper. I worked on it today and in the process found a search engine to quote some prices. I entered my cell phone number and info about the family and the gentleman was kind enough to return my call this evening. I had some time so he agreed to take some information and "find" a plan that would be great for all of us. Great I said. He asked the kids ages, my husbands a...

I WANT IT TO SNOW-PLEASE JACK WANTS A SNOWMAN. I WANT A SNOW DAY WITH CHILI AND HOME MADE BREAD. COLD TOES, SNOW IN BOOTS, RED CHEEKS, QUIET. C'MON JUST ONE BIG ONE THEN IT CAN ALL MELT. THANK YOU

Ok so I get the word I only have a month to live and I get anything I want wishes. Anything. First I wish for 20 years- oh yeah thats not allowed in Suzie imaginary wish dream sequence. Second wish for Pop to come back like nothing ever happened go back to July 06 and start the whole disaster over. All new decisions, choices and all would be "perfect". Nope not on the wish abilities. OK so here goes. I get a month to spend with all my favorite people. The first two weeks on a tropical island designated for all my Loved ones. Friends, family, coworkers, past lovers and anyone that meant anything to me at any time would be there. Why not, Im dead in a month anyway so why not reminisce about the good, the bad, and the "not so great decisions." We would have a two week vacation with free flowing tropical umbrella drinks and naps on the beach as I tell people why I loved them, exactly WHY I LOVE THEM. Not because they are my third cousin twice removed but because the...

We ate pastie tonight. You know meat and potato pie? That stuff can kill a gut, then throw some birthday cake and shrimp on top and you feel like shit. I was lying in bed tonight with my Andy and just groaned a little groan and rubbed the ole belly and he said, "there are tums in my overnight bag." simple gesture right? I didnt ask for Tums. Never said a word. He read my mind. The man with the biggest feet on the planet and a "whisper" voice that makes the dog growl read my Fu&*ing mind. He brought my phone to work the other morning because I left it on the kitchen counter. Yup the day after I told him I was no longer going to chase him around the house with a ringing cell phone in my hand screaming "should I answer it!!!!!" I told him he needed to be more responsible for his phone andnot leave it laying around. "what if I need you?" Yeah, that was me. Same Butthead that took the phone from his hand at work and shooed him out the door so I c...