Flaming June's Love

Posted the video because I love the song. My sentiments for tonight are about a topic I try not to dwell on. But today I was smacked with some truth. Since Andy was inthe Army and recently retired we were able to continue on the health insurance that comes with it. Our 18 months is up in another month. Andys insurance through his work is very expensive, 1200 a month for the family. My work does not offer insurance for its part time employees. We talked last night about searching for a plan for the family independently. Blue cross blue shield, aetna, something commercial for all of us and maybe it would be cheaper. I worked on it today and in the process found a search engine to quote some prices. I entered my cell phone number and info about the family and the gentleman was kind enough to return my call this evening. I had some time so he agreed to take some information and "find" a plan that would be great for all of us. Great I said. He asked the kids ages, my husbands a...

I WANT IT TO SNOW-PLEASE JACK WANTS A SNOWMAN. I WANT A SNOW DAY WITH CHILI AND HOME MADE BREAD. COLD TOES, SNOW IN BOOTS, RED CHEEKS, QUIET. C'MON JUST ONE BIG ONE THEN IT CAN ALL MELT. THANK YOU

Ok so I get the word I only have a month to live and I get anything I want wishes. Anything. First I wish for 20 years- oh yeah thats not allowed in Suzie imaginary wish dream sequence. Second wish for Pop to come back like nothing ever happened go back to July 06 and start the whole disaster over. All new decisions, choices and all would be "perfect". Nope not on the wish abilities. OK so here goes. I get a month to spend with all my favorite people. The first two weeks on a tropical island designated for all my Loved ones. Friends, family, coworkers, past lovers and anyone that meant anything to me at any time would be there. Why not, Im dead in a month anyway so why not reminisce about the good, the bad, and the "not so great decisions." We would have a two week vacation with free flowing tropical umbrella drinks and naps on the beach as I tell people why I loved them, exactly WHY I LOVE THEM. Not because they are my third cousin twice removed but because the...

We ate pastie tonight. You know meat and potato pie? That stuff can kill a gut, then throw some birthday cake and shrimp on top and you feel like shit. I was lying in bed tonight with my Andy and just groaned a little groan and rubbed the ole belly and he said, "there are tums in my overnight bag." simple gesture right? I didnt ask for Tums. Never said a word. He read my mind. The man with the biggest feet on the planet and a "whisper" voice that makes the dog growl read my Fu&*ing mind. He brought my phone to work the other morning because I left it on the kitchen counter. Yup the day after I told him I was no longer going to chase him around the house with a ringing cell phone in my hand screaming "should I answer it!!!!!" I told him he needed to be more responsible for his phone andnot leave it laying around. "what if I need you?" Yeah, that was me. Same Butthead that took the phone from his hand at work and shooed him out the door so I c...

Yeah I am feeling better. Emotionally and physically. I believe menopause has hit me. It is amazing that a few short hours after getting my period which was three weeks late, I am back to my old self. I return to the woman that loves her family and husband and wants to make a big dinner for everyone. Not to say I wouldnt love to have that shoppe someday, I just dont want to leave everyone behind, and disappear. I will call my ob gyn and find some hormones maybe for this transition. Andy and I were talking about this event that is befallen us. MENOPAUSE> end to childbearing years that leaves a woman hormonally unstable and deficient. SO my excuse for my weepy, self indulgent, pathetic week (or two) ------- Hormones, or lack of them. It is 9 30 on a Sunday morning, I am sitting in the recliner and Jack is busy playing with his cars, and new Zhou Zhou pets. He put the zhou zhou in RC Lightning McQueen and drove it around the house. I am making biscuits and some scrambled eggs. drinking...

Kurt Vonnegut's 1997 MIT commencement speech: "Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97: Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine. Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blin...