Flaming June's Love

Yeah.. My thoughts while at the gym, I look around at the bodies running walking, stairmastering, I check out all the bodies and ask myself do I look like that woman? hmm, is my ass that big. OH GOD tell me I dont look like that one I should just take the bridge if that is me. I was on the treadmill, singing away ( I am sure to make sure the people around me have headphones on before I begin my singalong....) whn the woman next to me who was bigger than I am, ( I certainly woulnd be next to a skinny minnie it woul dmanke me feel worse LOL) anyway she is walking with a passion I dream of. FAST real fast walk. then I am walking sweating and sweating more. She picks up he speed, now the woman is walking like a pacer. SHe has a towel and wipes her brow. I know all the details because we are probably less than 5 feet apart. Not difficult to pick up on. I keep on my pace and maintain my decorum sweating but not a sopping mess, then she picks up the speed again. Now SOB is running. ...

My brother Danny had a Birthday yesterday. I didnt call him. I had my phone out and ready to go and then totally lost the thought. I love him, really alot. So in honor of the brother that has the pnly winter birthday here goes.... 5 things I like about Danny.... 1. He doesnt seem to have an argumentative bone in his body. I could say I was ready to hack away at my belly fat with a butter knife and he'd say "really?, hmmmm. well I dont know about that Suz?" 2. He raised his boys to be good men. Danny jr. is an eagle scout and always seems to have a gentle hand out to help someone. Danny is the same way, gentle, wachful, thoughtfu. 3. He is smart, but nobody would know it because he doesnt flaunt it. 4. He can run really long distances and is committed to the gym. At this stage of my gymdom that is really really cool. 5. He knows, along with my other brothers and my Mom the worst day of my life. And no matter how raw and exposed we all ere that day watching our D...

OK alot on my mind- alot to say- but no time or patience to definately talk about all of it. IN A NUTSHELL!!! Facebook can either make you feel really successful or really shitty. I am still deciding how I feel about seeing people I havent seen in 25 years. NONE and I MEAN NONE seem to have children as old as mine. What does that make me well.... I have either gotten married young and had kids and then started my CAREER!!!!! OR I made my kids my career and have worked at a few jobs while raising them. OR I was doing the nasty without protection at a young age and got CAUGHT!!!! Second thing... the first person you ever had sex with 25 years later is still THE FIRST PERSON YOU HAD SEX WITH!!!!! Still turns your stomach into a basket of worms, still has that effect on your legs and makes you wobble a little and no matter how much of his hair is missing and how wrinkled his shirt may have been, Is still the guy you wish you had, at least for a little bit longer. I am fine and feeli...

I have learnt silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers. [info][add][mail] Kahlil Gibran (1883 - 1931)

A few of my favorites and love to all.

Its not political for me today, Today is hope, pride, courage, and unity. Black, white yellow, I am proud to be American. Although there are people that are waiting for a problem and I know there will be, I prefer to wait for change, beginnings, brotherhood and pride. This is a defining moment in our history, like it or not, voted for it or not, the tomorrows of yesterday are today. I will blog again later with more static benign Suzidom I am sure but for right now I am waving out my southern most window to the Americans standing in the cold huddled together watching and waiting for the beginning of something new.