Flaming June's Love

I was ready to put it all away for the night and just typed in Forty Fort, and this vid of a sunset over my hometown and the beauty of the river I love so very much. Then the song of having hope and courage after the loss of someone you love. I needed this song and vid to feel better tonight. Thank you God. Thanks Pop.

The quality isnt the best but boy do I feel it everytime she hugs her Dad and knows that is it for.... Now. I want one more minute. Thats all just one minute to feel a little better and know he is ok. I also like the part when Joe tells Bill that he need not worry about what is to come Not as a man like him. Its so sweet so good. Miss you Dad. Love you.

I havent said too much about it becaue as you know I have my moments of high furued energy that seem to poop out. I have officially been going to the gym for two weeks now and am still enjoying it. I did a mile in 18 minutes. I know some of you runners in blog world scoff at the idea but for me thats good. I am happy with that and hope to be "Running" in three months. Funny for me today. I am on the treadmill at the gym, listening to Alanis and ripping every BAD GUY on the planet with her angry scorned woman music when I SEE HIM. Yup right out of LIFE BEHIND BARS or OZ... 6 feet of muscles tattoos and bald head. I cant help but look at him. Mirrors are everywhere. I can see him when I look away, I see him from the tv screen, yeah I feel like his bald head is a freekin magnet for my eyes. I am not typically an oggler, It isnt polite and I am in no condition to look at anyone. This guy is something good girls only think about then blush. I continue on my walk and sin...

There are days that I think I have it all together, then like yesterday I am a shell of a person. My Missi is so much more than I am anymore. Her first swim meet was tonight. She was a nervous wreck and had hoped that she wouldnt swim in the meet since she is not a great swimmer.... but she has heart. We, Me Allie, and Tim arrived at 4:15 and watched attentively as kids swam and relayed and dove and breast, butterflied and all that stuff. My Missi wasnt ready to do her first eEVER SWIMMING RELATED ANYTHING until about 6:45. By this time I had said a full rosary in my head and numerous prayers that she ust get through it without finishing last. Why so negative well for a beginner it is not unreasonable to finish poorly since she never had a lesson or swam until about 10 weeks ago. She was in a relay and was the last leg. SHe umped in the pool and did her thing and we cheered and she got out and we hooted and hollered and she was happy. My prayers were answered and she is was to be...