Missi ... My Hero
There are days that I think I have it all together, then like yesterday I am a shell of a person.
My Missi is so much more than I am anymore.
Her first swim meet was tonight. She was a nervous wreck and had hoped that she wouldnt swim in the meet since she is not a great swimmer.... but she has heart.
We, Me Allie, and Tim arrived at 4:15 and watched attentively as kids swam and relayed and dove and breast, butterflied and all that stuff. My Missi wasnt ready to do her first eEVER SWIMMING RELATED ANYTHING until about 6:45. By this time I had said a full rosary in my head and numerous prayers that she ust get through it without finishing last. Why so negative well for a beginner it is not unreasonable to finish poorly since she never had a lesson or swam until about 10 weeks ago.
She was in a relay and was the last leg. SHe umped in the pool and did her thing and we cheered and she got out and we hooted and hollered and she was happy.
My prayers were answered and she is was to be in no other competition so Allie and I went home to relieve Nana of the BOY WONDER.
As we drove home and chatted of Missis courage to do something new and do it without any real complaints, Allies phone rang...
Timmy was on the line still at the pool telling us the coach was putting her for a longer relay last minute and she was freaking out. We were three minutes from home and no time to get back or get there in time for the start so we listened on the phone to Tims stroke by stroke.
Tim- Shes in the pool, shes hanging in there, uhoh somethings wrong, ohh boy this isnt good. OH SHIT, OH MAN, He hung up.
I am in full panic mode.
True panic mode.
ALlie calls him back he is screaming that she cramped up and is in the middle of the pool barely swimming during the relay and really struggling. the team is yelling and she is hardly moving.
She is barely swimming at all.
I ump out of the car and she heads back to get her.
My heart is broken for her.
I am truly in grief mode for her. SHe has committed her time, and energy and soul for this swimming adventure. She so wants to be part of this.
I go inside and wait for a call from anyone.
I cry as my stomach ust turns and churns.
15 minutes later I call Allie and get the scoop. SHe dove in and her goggles popped off. SHe tried to fix them and in the process swallowed water trying to swim. Her turns were bad becaue she couldnt see the wall. In the mess going on she got flustered and panicked. She tired and finished her leg of the relay a minute behind the other teams.
She cried and her teammates hugged her and told her it was ok it happens and that she was brave to keep going. SHe didnt give up.
In the middle of the pool with a few hundred people watching she kept going.
My hero.
When she got home I had pulled MYSELF togehter and asked if she was ok,
I will be ok, Im embarassed.... but it will get better.
I have weights at 5:45 am and back to the pool after school and I will get better. Dont worry Mom Ill be ok.
I am so proud of her courage.
I am proud of her comittment.
brave, beautiful, awake.
Today is a Missi day
My Missi is so much more than I am anymore.
Her first swim meet was tonight. She was a nervous wreck and had hoped that she wouldnt swim in the meet since she is not a great swimmer.... but she has heart.
We, Me Allie, and Tim arrived at 4:15 and watched attentively as kids swam and relayed and dove and breast, butterflied and all that stuff. My Missi wasnt ready to do her first eEVER SWIMMING RELATED ANYTHING until about 6:45. By this time I had said a full rosary in my head and numerous prayers that she ust get through it without finishing last. Why so negative well for a beginner it is not unreasonable to finish poorly since she never had a lesson or swam until about 10 weeks ago.
She was in a relay and was the last leg. SHe umped in the pool and did her thing and we cheered and she got out and we hooted and hollered and she was happy.
My prayers were answered and she is was to be in no other competition so Allie and I went home to relieve Nana of the BOY WONDER.
As we drove home and chatted of Missis courage to do something new and do it without any real complaints, Allies phone rang...
Timmy was on the line still at the pool telling us the coach was putting her for a longer relay last minute and she was freaking out. We were three minutes from home and no time to get back or get there in time for the start so we listened on the phone to Tims stroke by stroke.
Tim- Shes in the pool, shes hanging in there, uhoh somethings wrong, ohh boy this isnt good. OH SHIT, OH MAN, He hung up.
I am in full panic mode.
True panic mode.
ALlie calls him back he is screaming that she cramped up and is in the middle of the pool barely swimming during the relay and really struggling. the team is yelling and she is hardly moving.
She is barely swimming at all.
I ump out of the car and she heads back to get her.
My heart is broken for her.
I am truly in grief mode for her. SHe has committed her time, and energy and soul for this swimming adventure. She so wants to be part of this.
I go inside and wait for a call from anyone.
I cry as my stomach ust turns and churns.
15 minutes later I call Allie and get the scoop. SHe dove in and her goggles popped off. SHe tried to fix them and in the process swallowed water trying to swim. Her turns were bad becaue she couldnt see the wall. In the mess going on she got flustered and panicked. She tired and finished her leg of the relay a minute behind the other teams.
She cried and her teammates hugged her and told her it was ok it happens and that she was brave to keep going. SHe didnt give up.
In the middle of the pool with a few hundred people watching she kept going.
My hero.
When she got home I had pulled MYSELF togehter and asked if she was ok,
I will be ok, Im embarassed.... but it will get better.
I have weights at 5:45 am and back to the pool after school and I will get better. Dont worry Mom Ill be ok.
I am so proud of her courage.
I am proud of her comittment.
brave, beautiful, awake.
Today is a Missi day
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