Flaming June's Love

There are days that I think I have it all together, then like yesterday I am a shell of a person. My Missi is so much more than I am anymore. Her first swim meet was tonight. She was a nervous wreck and had hoped that she wouldnt swim in the meet since she is not a great swimmer.... but she has heart. We, Me Allie, and Tim arrived at 4:15 and watched attentively as kids swam and relayed and dove and breast, butterflied and all that stuff. My Missi wasnt ready to do her first eEVER SWIMMING RELATED ANYTHING until about 6:45. By this time I had said a full rosary in my head and numerous prayers that she ust get through it without finishing last. Why so negative well for a beginner it is not unreasonable to finish poorly since she never had a lesson or swam until about 10 weeks ago. She was in a relay and was the last leg. SHe umped in the pool and did her thing and we cheered and she got out and we hooted and hollered and she was happy. My prayers were answered and she is was to be...

Im feeling some Christmas spirit, but then the tree falls over and breaks a few balls as it always does, and Jack has a freaking meltdown after a weekend of excellent behavior, so yeah Im feeling,... ambiguous. I have waited for a very long time to have Christmas in this new house and you know what... It is just a house. The rooms are bigger the paint is classy, the floors beautiful but you know what , just rooms. My kids are the same and amazing. My husband the same and.... I am the same and feeling IT. Allie had an assignment for her Philosophy class, she had to ask questions of four different people at four different stages of life and I really didnt want to know my answers. I am sure no one wants to hear another story of regret and shoulda coulda woulda's but hat is what my life is right now. I try to see past all the PIA shtuf but damn Im tired. I am trying to keep everyone happy bu thtis girl is old. How old would I be? 35 Why? independence broke, yeah but potential was...

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I received a comment from a lovely woman that read my blog and believes I am a "doll". I follow a blog of a family that began as a tragic story and now I follow because of the faith the woman has and I find it inspiring and gives me courage and humility for my own life. As I look through the blogs I follow I realize they are all the blogs of spiritual women. Religious, faithful, women with children and husbands, lives full of everything mine is full of and they still have room for MORE. Here is my thought for today, They have hurdles larger than mine, sick children, tragedies that would send most people reeling, Does their faith ease their problems? ease their pain, make their lives something that I dont have? Why does it seem as though their faith in Jesus Christ gives them an extra hand, extra courage, strength. Is that the answer, is that what I am missing that would HELP ME HELP THEM!!! Help me,,, help them. Help me,,, help them. I love them so very much and I would ...