Flaming June's Love

Yeah I was roaming youtube and found this song which in turn reminded me of again.. another one of my wanderings.... I met this guy at the Y. yeah the Y when Missi was a baby. He was there with his daughter and I was swimmin with her. He and I just clicked and he shared alot of his favorite music with me. This is one them. He wrote the words out for me and put them in my car. He also pressed some flowers for me and put them with it. Yeah it was real real sweet. I was taken with him and the great conversations we had. No crazy funny business just a cool guy I should have met another time. Then again.... maybe not. He wrote out the words to Eric Claptons Wonderful Tonight. He attached a note because at the time I cut my hair really really short. He thought I looked beautiful no matter what I did.

A few pics from today. As you all know Andy is workin his tail off to $et these porches done for Allies birthday. He is now on the last but bi%%est of them all in the back. Today it rained and he was out there in thunder and li%htnin% unitl my MOm called and said "tell ANdy I said $et out of the li%htinin% or he is %onna %et it from me." He came in. When the boomers stopped he went back out. I am attachin a fe pics of he and Missi workin to%ether. If you would have told me Missi would use impact drivers and LIKE IT I would never a%ree but there are moments she looked at me and smiled like this is COOOOL. I tooka pic of the card she made me for my birthday. The characters onth card are just so the three of them and I love it. I hope to frame it as soon as I remember what size it is at the store. We looked on line and stuff for the perfect colle%e for her in Philadelphia. Havent foundit yet but it is comin%. I am hopin% to find one on the east coast since she seems ...

Yeah so that is almost three years, Au%ust 18th Ill have my new junk...three years. My Dad came to visit me in the hospital about a day or two later after this fiasco and said he prayed, prayed to %od to let me live. He told me he would trade his life for mine at that time. He said that out loud. "SuZIe, I prayed to $et you well and asked %od to save you and take me instead." I thou%ht nothin of it at the time. Until a year later almost to the day and he is lyin% in a hospital bed, dyin%. Did %od listen and take him up on his offer? AM I here because of some deal? Should I feel %uilty? Its all very bizzarre isnt it? Im %oin% to ask him about that when I see him. Remind me of that OK?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. Kahlil Cut me a break dudes and dudettes I am tryin here. I am really stretchin% and reachin% for some sense of peace on this day. I do feel some relief that my MOm and Dads house sold easily, Mom has some extra cash to feel comfort from. We are all comforted by the idea that she is closer to me and I can be there in less than three minutes. ALL FANTASTIC. I am searchin the web for words to comfort my feelin^s of loss, and a quote that will ease the reality of transition. Transition and chan%e are all fine thin%s. WHEN YOU WANT CHAN5E!!! I personally dont want chan%e, I like the same old thin%. I was born to be the same old thin%, dammit. OK so Kahlil Gibran is tellin me that my sorrow is just a si%n of my happines...

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. 9 What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth? 10 I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it. 11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God m...

It done. Mom and Dads house is empty. The stuff is %one. The floors are swept and the memories have been stirred so that as we drove away today I could almost still hear them. I took some pics of the place. If these walls and floors could talk. I am attachin% a pic of my Dads chair a tthe breakfast bar. It is stayin% with the house. It belon%s there for the new family. I took a few pics and can still see him sittin% there smokin% and smilin% waitin% for us to visit. The family pics attached are from the memorial posters from his funeral. The pics are irreplaceable and I cant take them. So I pic'd pics. Allie is pickin% a few of the amazin% flowers from the yard. Jonh was there for a few minutes and he cried. We were a family all of us on that street for too few years. I let ^o of his wife my best friend on that street. My husband on that street, my Dad. My %randfather, My %randmother,. All our family apirits charm that street and I now officially have no reason t...