Flaming June's Love

About 14 years a&0 while livin% on the farm there was as ummer day when both of my %irls went down for a nap. They were such %ood ^irls, they would ^o to their room play for a bit and then %o to sleep. I could hear them pretty well and the never %ot into too mucht rouble I recall it bein% a summer day because their air conditioner was on and their room door was shut. I remember bein% in the bedroom in the front of the house when I %ot the sudden whif of basby powder. hmmm funny. five minutes later I smell it a^ain. I looked of the bottle, its not there where it should be on th chan%in% table in the hall. Missi was about two and Allie 4ish. No panic I must have left it somewhere in a rush diaper chan%e. I walk past the %irls room to head down the steps and there it was, the smell of baby powder stron% as ever. OH ^OD WHAT ARE THEY DOIN%!!!!! I opened the door and truly could not find my children in the fo% they had created while emptyin% the lar%e shaker of talc into the a...

A few notes to the MASSES or shall I say thron^S of readers. LOL Yesterday was two years since my Dads admission to the hospital. He was admitted on a I cant remember... Is that a %ood thin%? I cant remember the day of the week. I have found blo^s of parents that have lost children and I read them every ni^ht so I can realize the potential of loss. I feel it but cant fathom their pain. I realize we are lucky we havent had disaster, we have lost a father which is to be expected at this sta^e of our lives. doenst make it better thou^h. My Moms car broke down today and we rented one for her to use for a few weeks until she fi^ures out what she wants to do with the car and then ^o buy another. ANYEWHO we walk into the place of rentals and it is a n absolute disaster area. mess. I Immediately thou^t shady joint and wnated to leave. Then the nicest man came out from behind the desk and immediately I thou^ht what I nice man for my mom. hmmm MOM what? date. He was white haired dre...

This kid makes me laugh,she can piss me off but I would be lost without her. The other kid I just admire for her bravery to be different and softness to be hurt so easily. They both are the world to me. I dont know what would define me all these years if it werent them. It goes without saying that everyday with them is an edventure and I dotn want it any other way.

Today was Joe the nei%hbors %raduation party. As I have mentioned before in recent weeks the relationship of ALlie and Joe is chan^in^. I have voiced the idea that she has avoided the BEIN% with Joe because of the friendship and now that she may be wantin% moe it may be past that for him. SHe and I and my MOm and her friends went to his party today and I really dont know what is %oin% on with them. Allie has finally admitted that she wants to persue somethin% with him, (THAT IS HU$E BY ITSELF) But he had a %irlfriend up until a few days a%o and now she is probaly feelin% the crunch. ALl I can say anymore is that I know what a broken heart feels like. I have had them more than once. I know that when you have your heart set on someone and it doesnt happen or doesnt happent he way you want it to it hurts even more. So the eternal cosmic question? DO you ^0 for the &uy you know you will always love, or do you hold back because you know you cant lose him as a friend? I amhopin% ...