Flaming June's Love

My ex decided to go on a well deserved vacation. I dont begrudge him that. My issue is he doesnt tell anyone of his children that he will be away for a week. Nothing. Missi has been trying to call him for three days, no answer. Allie tries calling to report her safe return home and no answer. I call this am and guess what hes in New hAMPSHIRE ON A BIKE TRIP. gOOD iM GLAD BUT WHY NOT SHARE THE NEWS WITH YOUR KIDS. TELL THEM YOU WONT BE AROUND FOR FATHERS DAY SO THEY ARENT PLANNING A DINNER AND GET YOU STUFF. All the stuff I was feeling for him last week,, yup all gone. Im glad hes alone, he should be, he cant handle intimacy considering he cant have any relationship with his daughters. So I recant my guilt, (for today) I earned a few good screws for those few years. He was unwilling and most of the time unable to perform so FU&* him, or may I say FU^% them, and so I did... Here is how we spent our Fathers day. We got up did some work around the house and the girls got s...

This one always reminded me of my Mom and Dad. Spending time apart when Dad was in the Navy. Although the time in their lives is not something we talk about I can imagine my Mom was struggling without him. I believe their love was forged during that time. Thats why I love who they were... or are... together. Andy took me on a vacation after only knowing one another a few weeks. We went to Florida Keys and had the most wonderful time together. He was charming, smart, funny. He made me feel like a woman again. He showed me new and exciting things and encouraged me to push further. Ijumped from a boat to go snorkling on a coral reef inthe gulf of Mexico. I drank tequila and rode a bicycle throughthe streets of Keywest. We watched the sun set and rise on another morning. I went on th trip without asking anyones permission, I made my first adult real decision that trip, I owe that to him. I drove a boat throught he gulf of mexico then around the keys to the Atlantic ocean, just...

Emo for those of you not in the know means, a teen in the time of emotional termoil of their life nad dress dark, behave dark and genreally are examples of teen angst. Well there are days that I come to this site and read my shtuff and label myself emo. I do have reason to bitch but I dont like it. Today no rants or raging. Today is a day of showing off the beuaty in my life. I am attaching a photo fo my boy taken last night and if there was ever a pic of Jack that describes him it is THIS ONE> The character of JAck is in the details and perifery of the scene. Allow me to identify the nuance of the boy we love. 1. The one yellow boot on his right foot. Yes he could only find one and he wanted to wear them in 90 degree weather so it was on for a good two hours dragging about the house. running along the wood floors with a CLUNK- swish, CLUNK-swish... Joyful as ever. 2. The balloon floating to the right of the frame is the baloon I recieved on the flowers form the girls for m...

Riding in the car today and had a hankering for a lil bit o'country. (That NEVER HAPPENS) I heard this tune pop on. and man I bawled my eyes out for a good ten minutes. I think sometimes life just turns a few degrees to one side or the other and it just never gets back on track. I think my Dads death just set me off my track and I have never gotten back on. Remember as a kid the cars that ran on tracks with a remote and it could go faster or slower with your controller? If the car was off just a lil bit it would run but, rattle, skip and sputter along the track like it just wasnt wanting to go anywhere? well I feel like that sometimes. I used this analogy before but it is so appropriate, A stripped screw. I dig in I push hard and just never seem to catch anything solid. Had some news today from Andys work and it looks like he wont be with this company past July. Economy is hitting and I guess this house is about to feel that crunch too. I for some reason am not too wor...

Pushin the buttons tonight and Andy says to check back another channel. There he was in his sweaty glory. Loudin Swain. Matthew Modine. The hottest wrestler in HS History I didnt have a vcr back in the day so seeing movie after the theater was unheard of. The music the memories of HS. The memories of my brothers wrestlin in our living room. The whole thing. If you havent partaken in a long time give Loudin Swain another visit.